i was hanging out w/ young nak people today and ron said, "you know who should've been named frankenstein?" and we thought of the same person. then rich yum started laughing and then ron said, "rich, i wouldn't be laughin too hard if i was you." i thought that was hilarious.

went to tony romas for dinner, they had their all you can eat ribs deal going. i got that and i ate 47 ribs. i coulda ate more but i was already feeling crappy enough and my friends were waiting on me and it wouldve taken me a long time to eat more. dang, i shoulda gotten to 50. but that wouldve taken like another half hr. i dont think imma ever order the all you can eat ribs again. my fingers still smell like ribs.....

wednesday, bout mid-spring break. the days are going by too quickly. dang, i need a haircut. i always tell my bro to cut my hair and his response is always tomorrow. then i ask him the next day and he says tomorrow, and then ill say you said that yesterday! and then he'll get all pissed and say go to the barber and cut your hair!......


at the beginning of break i didn't read the Bible at all, yes, im still a sinner. but i picked it back up for the past few days and i finished Acts today. i dunno if i should go onto Romans cuz im going through it in my Bible study group right now or if i should skip onto 1 Corinthians. hmm, well just have to wait and see. but ya, i've realized that the Bible is very confusing at times. Like in Acts 26:14 Paul is recalling the account of when the Lord first spoke to him. Paul is telling King Agrippa that a voice said, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me? It is hard for you to kick against the goads." so i turned back to chapters 9 and 22 where the story is also told. in ch 22 Paul is speaking to a crowd in Jerusalem and in ch 9 it is the first time the story is told. but in both ch 9 and 22 it says only, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?" it doesnt include the part in ch 26 that says, "It is hard for you to kick against the goads." i was wondering why the heck Paul didn't say that junk in the previous chapters. i was also wondering what the heck does it mean? so then i used the great internet capabilities and went to www.Bible.com and looked up the passages in a different version than the NIV. i looked in the KJV and it says, "Who art thou, Lord? And the Lord said, I am Jesus whom thou persecutest: it is hard for thee to kick against the pricks." it says that for ch 9 and 26 in the KJV but not for ch 22. and so when i read "pricks" i was thinking in the terms that we usually use it: a reference to a person who is a jerk or something like that. so then i went to www.dictionary.com and looked up prick and goad. so pricks was used in the sense when you prick someone with a needle, and a goad is a long stick that is sharp at the end which you use to prick people or things, kinda like a crude spear. so anyway, i did all this stuff and it helped me in a way, but it also didnt. it showed me that different versions of the Bible include and omit certain things and that none of the translations are perfect. now i understand that Paul is being symbolically pricked by the Jews. but i still don't think that i fully undertand the meaning of the line, "It is hard for you to kick against the goads." and im not sure why it was written only in certain chapters instead of all 3 of em for the different translations. ok, i think ive talked about this too much. basically, i need to get smarter and study harder. dang, this reality check sucks.

stankin paper is still left unfinished at its like 4:30am. i just took a nap and i wanna go back to sleep, sigh. hopefully i can crank this out in like 3 hrs but i highly highly doubt it. i always do this to myself, y oh y oh y.

so last night my bro was gonna go out and then my mom told him to come back early. and that reminded her of how he came back home really late on saturday night and she started scolding him about it, i thought it was a funny sight. my 23 year old brother living at home and about to go out w/ his yuj and my mom is still yelling at him for coming home late at night. one of the great joys of being at berkeley, not getting scolded by the mom.

finally home. a much needed rest even though i gotta still do a paper thats due on monday and i need to do a lot of reading and other crap for college stankin writing. but after that paper is done imma probably just chill. oh ya, hiyas did some crazinesses to my hair on wednesday. i dunno exactly what to call it. basically she twisted it up and then tied it down w/ rubber bands. so my hair is in rows, my bro says i look like latrell sprewell. it hurt at first, and that night i was starting to get a headache. but it got better but now its hurting a lil cuz i think its jacking up my scalp cuz its pulling constantly. i met up w/ my relatives today, saturday, and my grandma wasnt too pleased. but my mom was a lot more cool w/ it than i thought she would be. but she still wants me to get rid of it soon. think imma have my bro cut it tonight. im tired, gotta wake up gangsta early for church. its nice to be back home.

its hecka early right now, bout 7am. i ended up falling asleep at a friend's pad while trying to study. got home around 5am and then i did the dishes which took like an hour cuz there was a grip of stuff to wash and i just take forevs to do em. i think its weird when people wash each thing individually, like they scrub a dish and then they rinse it off and then they go on to the next thing. i scrub all the stuff first and then rinse em all off at the same time. i think its easier and faster but i could be wrong. some people like to cook but i'd rather wash dishes, i think its a lot easier to wash dishes. i don't really mind doing the dishes....i think i have like 2 people that read my blog consistently, how sad. but like i said, this aint for others, its mainly for me cuz im selfish like that.

so i'm at Acts 15:37-40, "Barnabas wanted to take John, also called Mark, with them, but Paul did not think it wise to take him, because he had deserted them in Pamphylia and had not continued with them in the work. They had such a sharp disagreement that they parted company. Barnabas took Mark and sailed for Cyprus, but Paul chose Silas and left, commended by the brothes to the grace of the Lord." man, they must've had a gangsta fight in order to just ditch each other like that. i wish i knew more bout each of these guys, how close they were to each other and stuff. maybe they were really close friends or maybe they didn't get along that well the whole time. i just hope this don't happen to me, where i get into an argument or fight w/ someone in my church or something and we have some crazy beef. we all got too much pride.

i missed class today. its cuz i didnt write my essay and we were supposed to turn in a first draft today but i was too tired to do it last night. im definitely burnt out. but i just realized that this is only the 3rd time i missed class this semester. in the previous 2 semesters i missed about over 100 classes. yup, forills. in the spring semester of my freshman yr i missed over 60 classes and in the fall of my sophomore yr i missed about 40 classes. man, those absences add up....

in Acts 12:21-23 it says, "On the appointed day Herod, wearing his royal robes, sat on his throne and delivered a public address to the people. They shouted, "This is the voice of a god, not of a man." Immediately, because Herod did not give praise to God, an angel of the Lord struck him down, and he was eaten by worms and died." he got eaten by worms??? i wish i coulda seen all the stuff that happened back in the day, that stuff wouldve been crazy.

the Bible continues to surprise me. first of all, in Acts 9:40 it says, "Peter sent them all out of the room; then he got down on his knees and prayed. Turning toward the dead woman, he said, "Tabitha, get up." She opened her eyes, and seeing Peter she sat up." i think thats gangsta that Peter brought a dead woman back to life. he did what Jesus was able to do. i thought that was pretty amazing. the second verse that really surprised me was pointed out to me by anna and marcia. Deuteronomy 25:11 "If two men are fighting and the wife of one of them comes to rescue her husband from his assailant, and she reaches out and seizes him by his private parts, you shall cut off her hand. Show her no pity." check it out yourself, its right there in the Bible. hahaha, now thats truly gangsta! i guess this happened pretty often or something to make it a law or command or whatevs.

sigh, slept at 4:30am, woke up at 8am. had prayer meeting then ate some cereal and then went to rsf cuz our IM basketball team was supposed to shoot around together. but apparently i was the only one there at 10:15 even tho we was supposed to meet up at 10 and the only other guy that showed up was robert. i waited for like over an hr just to play my first game cuz it was dang packed on the courts. after playing ball i went and took a 1 min shower then picked up some people for missions training. came back, ate, then went to the ksa event. ran into anna and marcia on the way home and they chilled here for a while. anna and i kept on laughing at marcia for a lot of things, i havent laughed so hard in a while. it was a fun night but now im so dang exhausted. and now my stomach is hurting, i dunno y. im putting my body through too much pain. but i gotta prepare counsel time for awana before i sleep, i shoulda done it earlier, sigh.

haha, andy is so excited cuz he finally got his new computer today. hes been w/out his computer for like almost a month (3 and a half weeks). i think hes really really happy cuz he finally got it. its a pretty sweet dell system, a lot better than his old one that died on him like a million times. man, now i want a new computer system too. i want a lot of new things, dang, y am i so materialistic. stupid society, but we cant totally blame it on just society, i guess its just in our nature to desire things. aigoo, y am i such a sinner.......

its like 3:30am and i gotta get up at 8:00am for awana morning prayer. imma be hating it in the morning. but it was all my fault cuz i was playing monopoly w/ martini, young, and ted. then later jiehoon took over for young cuz she left.....i think imma get rocked again this weekend. i can feel all the junk that i need to do building up. sigh, i just need one last push, only need to survive one more stankin week. then im home free.

so in Acts chapter 8 this guy philip is led by the Spirit to evangelize to this one dude. this dude eventually asks philip to baptize him and so philip agrees to do it. in Acts 8:39-40 it says, "When they came up out of the water, the Spirit of the Lord suddenly took Philip away, and the eunuch did not see him again, but went on his way rejoicing. Philip, however, appeared at Azotus and traveled about, preaching the gospel in all the towns until he reached Caesarea." what the freezy? i didnt totally understand what the Spirit did to philip cuz all it says is that it took him away. crazinesses....

ncaa tourny starts tomorrow or rather today. just finished doing my picks. texas is my cinderella team, i have them in the final four, haha. i also got cal in the final four for the yahoo group that im in w/ some young nak people, go bears!

so im reading the bible a lot more now cuz ive decided to read a chapter of the bible everytime before i turn on my computer. so i usually turn it on 1-2 times a day, so that means 1-2 chapters a day of bible reading. i started in the book of Acts cuz i didnt wanna start in Genesis and i didnt wanna start w/ the gospels either so i decided on starting right after the gospels right after Jesus was taken up to heaven. so i was reading Acts chapter 5 and its pretty crazy. the apostles are doing amazing things and some people sell all that they have and give it to the apostles to distribute it to the needy. this one guy Ananias sells his land, keeps part of the money, and gives the rest to them saying that it was all the money he had. but Peter was able to tell that was lying and he rebuked him and then, "When Ananias heard this, he fell down and died." Acts 5:5. same thing happened to his wife cuz she knew and lied too so she died too in verse 10. i thought that it was crazy that they just died out of nowhere. so ya, i guess u shouldnt lie to the Holy Spirit or there could be some clajee consequences.

sigh, we lost our softball game to the pangu boys. so sad, it wouldve been nice to end the season 2-1. dang this stankin short 3 game season. at least i still got basketball and football. we better tear it up on the court.

so its bout 5:30am right now, basically all ive been doing for the past 3 hrs is my laundry. i need to study for my vocab quiz and i need to get started on my college writing paper but i havent done jiggity jack squat. this sucks. y the heck do i do this to myself?

another full weekend, played basketball cuz i was pumped up after owning my ling midterm. then basically fell asleep in fic (sigh, im reminded that im a sinner way too often). saturday - awana prayer meeting, more sleep, missions training. sunday - church, awana, football, softball, then start my studying. monday - vocab quiz, stankin college writing, e-house, basketball. im gonna be dang tired. imma pray that God will sustain me once again.

got to talk w/ young and martini bout lots stuff today. we all realized that our church is headed downhill, theres just a lack and need of too many things. we all know that we gotta step it up in our own ways, i think God convicted us three to do take action. we talked a lot bout it and then we prayed, then talked some more, and then prayed again. it was a great time of sharing and praying, we really need more prayer. i made this song my prayer:

Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me

earlier this morning blogger was down so i couldn't post. and now its hecka early in the morning, bout 8:30am ish. i pulled an all nighter cuz i had to study for my linguistics midterm cept i havent really studied it too well. so right now im at moffit and im trying to memorize all this junk. i even went to the friday morning prayer meeting but i slept through half of it cuz i was so dang tired. i cant wait til i get some sleep. i better ace this stupid midterm.

my korean teacher made fun of me the other day. she asked me what a certain word was, it was the word "hug" in korean but i didn't know it. she said that girls like to do this and i was like i have no idea and then she said, "yujah chingoo upjee?" then the whole class laughed at me, so sad.

the stankin blog that i just wrote didnt get posted. ill try to do it again. so last night we won 42-19. no more losses for us, we've got our eyes set on making playoffs.

on a different topic. just when i thought i finally understood God's grace, i realized that i still didnt do it justice, His grace is so much greater than i could ever imagine. i think one of my friends had a recent epiphany about grace, i think he came to realize that the only person that he needed to seek forgiveness from was Christ instead of the other people that he had wronged. another friend wrote me a verse on a birthday card last year and i was reminded of it recently since we're going over Romans in bible study, its an amazing verse.

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:38-39

finally finished my paper....naptime then gametime baby.

dangit. i fell asleep at 4:30am and i just got up right now at 9am and i barely started my paper. stankin school.

after awana i went to go watch some friends play in their first coed flag football game. they told me to sign up with them and play and so I did but i jacked up a few times. on the 2nd to last play huge threw me a hail mary bomb and the guy guarding me tipped the ball and so it threw me off but i coulda still caught the ball. and then on the last play huge dumped me a short pass and i scrambled for bout 50 yards but i got trapped so i lateraled it to john song and he tried to lateral it to someone else but it didnt work. man, that was my 3rd straight loss in 3 different sports: softball, basketball, football. and right after we had a softball game against the eastbay team and i really really didnt wanna lose again. we were down in the last inning cuz we let in some runs towards the end but our guys came back to win in the last inning. i was just very relieved to not lose again. and it was nice winning against the eastbay team cuz they beat us in basketball the previous week in that crazy close game. anyway, i got a stanking paper to write now and then i gotta study for korean vocab quiz, how crappy this is. im so butt tired. i got class til 5 and then i got e-house then i got another basketball game. hope i dont collapse and hope we win.

kevin said the funniest thing: he was at this chick's house while he was on her jock and then the chick's sis asked him how berkeley was and all he could think of was "you're so hot."

so i havent updated in a while. but aint like there r many people reading this. just to let the few of u faithful readers know that this is mainly for myself. i think itll just be cool to look back on this in the future. plus, if i wanna refresh my memory on something or if i wanna remember some specific event then ill be able to look back on this stuff.
so anyway, ive been busy again, but i cant really pinpoint what ive been busy w/. it just seems like all the little things add up. i havent been getting enuf sleep as usual. hope this does not become a trend for me but i think it already has which sucks majorly. on thurs we had a good small group session, i feel like my small group is really getting closer now. the more i spend time w/ them, the more i like them and the more i enjoy their company. we went to dennys afterwards and had fun singing songs in the car. on fri i played ball from bout 6-9 after the freshman retreat sendoff and then we had our soph, jr, sr sports fellowship. softball and football was fun but i was dead tired from no dinner and from bball. then i went to dennys again, but this time w/ a few of my class people. and today ive been busy w/ awana prayer meeting and missions training and im so dang tired still. only got 6 hrs of sleep after 6 hrs of running around playing sports. i gotta start a paper now thats due on mon and i have no time tomorrow at all, busy from noon til midnight so i guess ill be pulling an all-nighter to finish my stankin paper. if i was a girl i would just cry right now cuz i feel so dang burnt out. but i cant do that cuz i aint no sissy lala. my prayer now is that i may rely on God to strengthen me and that i would do all of this to glorify Him. may i find joy in serving my King.