for the past 3 nights before last night, i slept at 7am, if not 7:30am everynight (or rather morning). so i got 3 hrs, 2 hrs, 3 hrs respectively w/ one 3 hr nap in the middle of the day. i dunno how i was surviving. but finally last night i was able to crash forevs and got a good 14 hrs. man, it was pretty sad cuz i came home but i didnt get to say bye to everyone. like its not a big deal saying bye to those im gonna see next fall but im sad cuz the graduated people will be gone. hopefully i will get to see them again sometime. hopefully they will come back to see me graduate, but thatll probably be like another 4 yrs or whatevs....

Monkey528e: bon
BKU9: sup
BKU9: did u eat yet?
Monkey528e: nah
Monkey528e: wanna?
BKU9: ya
BKU9: where?
Monkey528e: where
BKU9: haha
Monkey528e: hah
BKU9: haha
Monkey528e: haha
Monkey528e: stop!
BKU9: hahahah
BKU9: ok

man, 7am. whatevs, i still feel like blogging.

ive realized how chi and i are so similar in certain ways. ive always thought that we were totally different but the similarities are still there. i think our minds think alike. they may not function or process the same way, but we still seem to come out generally w/ the same result. its weird how we have different personalities but we say the same things and we react in the same way.

dangit, i didnt get to write all the stuff that i wanted to cuz i was writing all these dang emails.

but ya, i think the reception will be very enjoyable since andy, janet, anica, and grace lost in taboo. i cant wait...

its crazy late and i wrote that blog bout 3 hrs ago but i didnt post it cuz i was talking w/ andy bout many things. we talked bout a grip of things but i dont remember anything cept one thing.....

so this is during 2nd semester freshman yr. me and andy were helping karen move out of the dorms and she was gonna leave some of her stuff at franks pad. so frank was getting swiped into priestly hall and the machine didnt register his card. on like the third try the sm monitor kinda mis-swiped and the card literally exploded. it was still all together but the card was dangling by threads all over the place. i was so scared at the moment cuz i didnt know frank well then. he had this mean look on his face and he seemed so pissed. but he looked like he was trying to hold in his anger but it seemed like he had so much anger that he couldnt hold it in. then he said, "i obviously dont live in this hall so theres no point in swiping my card." i think the sm monitor was scared as well but he didnt even really apologize, he just kinda handed back what was left of the card. while we were in the elevator he looked at the card and he was angry cuz he had that same card for 4 1/2 yrs w/out any troubles. oh man, i wish i had a picture of franks grill when his card exploded.

heres another story i remembered. so john chi and mejeld were over at my pad for a lil bit. me and john were talking bout the laker game and how crazy their comeback was. mejeld comes in and heres us and gets in on the laker talking. he starts off, "dude, the guys were over at my place and we were going crazy." then chi would say, "all the youth group ppl were over at pastor johns and we were going nuts. they seriously thought that i was gonna break some furniture when horry hit that shot." mejeld said, "all the guys were bashing on the lakers and jaepil was talking trash the whole time. seriously, he wouldnt stop. he kept on going and it was so frustrating." john, "dude!!! jomo and slum were hating on the lakers like crazy and everyone else was for the sacramento too and the only ones who were for LA were me and jessica but she was in the corner crying cuz they were losing so badly." mejeld, "when there were 11 second left, i was so hoping that they would win. i looked at jaepils eyes and they were wide open like this! seriously he was staring at the tv screen so hard" john,"oh my gosh. when horry hit that three i went so crazy. like my eyes were on horry and then right after the ball went through the hoop i turned to jomo and slum, and slum was like, "oh.....OHHHH!!!!!!....." and he was in such disbelief. and then i jumped up and screamed and frank didnt care who won but he saw slum and he started laughing at him like crazy and i jumped right into him and knocked him over so hard. i seriously knocked him like crazy." mejeld,"right after the shot i went crazy and i almost hurt sammy cuz i jumped on him and u know his back, so like ya i almost hurt him badly. and then my NAIM director called and i was trying to talk to him but everyone was going crazy and was all loud and screaming and i was trying to talk to him and i was like uh ya but i wanted to watch the tv but i trying to talk to him at same time and dude, it was so crazy. he thought party was going on and he asked me what it was all about." john,"oh my gosh, i ran into frank like this (he demostrated) and i hit him really hard and i thought i was seriously gonna break something."
..........2 guys telling their own stories w/out really listening to each other except using each others stories as a segway to theirs. i thought it was quite hilarious cuz each was so into their own story. they were just really wrapped in themselves. if u didnt enjoy this im sorry, u just had to be there.

i think my humor has changed in college. i think ive become a lot more cynical w/ my jokes. like whenever anyone asks me to do this or pass that or whatevs, i respond w/ a no. like someone would call and ask, "can i talk to andy" (this happens quite often and id bet $10 that its a female) and i would respond by saying, "no." i make lots of sarcastic remarks and i just say "mean" things. but i dont mean to be "mean." im just joking and i find humor in my sarcasm at times. but most of the time its just an automatic response. it has become normal to me and i dont like it. so from now on i think imma try to be "nicer." hopefully everyone doesnt think im really mean. but whatevs. if u think that then.....i dunno. if u think im mean then just tell me that im mean or just dont talk to me. but if u really think im mean then u probably dont talk to me already.

dude, i just stubbed my toe. i was walking in the bedroom and i banged my right pinky toe against pauls bed leg and it hurt like a motha. oh man, i was in so much pain for like half a minute. its so weird how that kinda stuff hurts so much. man, i hate hitting my toes against crap.

"i'm off to the library, woo hoo, i love finals week."
kevin chiang is one of the nerdiest nerd i know....

y the heck did i just check my email right now......y the heck am i blogging this crappers now....go study....no.....now......screw it......i hate school.....

let me clarify....when i said "i go try to study a lil more" i meant "imma go over to kathleens and talk w/ her amy and charles for 3 1/2 hrs." final in t minus 4 hrs and counting.....y the heck to they say t minus blah blah when counting down? or am i just making that stuff up cuz im delirious?

4:30am, got a final in 8 hrs, great time to update my blog. its a horrible feeling having a final while everyone else is done and playing. i wish i could just say screw it but theres something in me that somewhat cares bout my grade. i dunno what it is. its not like i dont care at all, but i think i barely care enough to do decently. i would go deeper into this but im a lazy somama so imma just stop. i go try to study a lil more. key word = try.

s n o b unnynk: there will be lotsa pretty athletic women
BKU9: hahaha
BKU9: ugh
s n o b unnynk: and lotsa athletic men
s n o b unnynk: hubba hubba
s n o b unnynk: and i'll give u yummy jolly rancher fruit chews
BKU9: id rather just have andy and huge
s n o b unnynk: u gotta play the field a lil
s n o b unnynk: andy & huge are nice.. sure .. but for how long?

im stankin tired. was at the library and i studied for the first time in my life. i slept for like an hr and then i studied for bout 2 hrs. and while i was studying i was thinking, "hey, this studying stuff aint too bad." dont get me wrong, i still dont LIKE studying, its just that i guess i dont HATE it. but then again when i was trying to study at dennys later i was hating it, so i guess that library instance was just a fluke.

for like the past few nights ive been sleeping w/out brushing my teeth. every one of those nights i thought to myself, "imma just take a nap in my bed." but that never works. ya, i know all of us have done that before, we convince our minds that were gonna wake up but our bodies dont cooperate. but ya, id always wake up at like 8am and realize that im in the same clothes and so id brush my teeth and take out my contacts and change and then go back to bed. i shouldnt do that anymore, i shall brush my teeth tonight.

so ya, last night i was kinda depressed cuz i have no direction in my life. but i slept it off and now im all good. i guess it just forces me to trust in God all the more. i keep searching for my future but all i get is nothing and its not scary but i just want motivation i guess. whatevs, ill leave it up to Him. i wonder if im just saying this cuz i have no other choice...

i just posted some junk but i decided to take it back. ill just add some crap later. this sucks.

ok, now working

y wont my stankin blog work....

so this past sat i was at the young nak basketball tournament. the first game that i played in was such a heartbreaker. the other team hit the last shot at the buzzer to win by two. what a sad game....

so ive heard that hayeun is pretty ghetto. i heard she packs food to go to denny's. i thought that was pretty funny.

i was talking w/ some friends the other night and john chi was there and we were talking bout his bad stank breath. dontchu hate it when ur talking w/ someone and u smell their nasty breath and ur thinking to urself, "oh man! can u please turn around and speak the other way!" sometimes people dont take enough breath mints or chew enough gum or they dont brush their teeth enough. but ya, i feel that way bout john chi sometimes when his grill is up close and his breath be kickin like bruce lee.

BKU9: just finished the bball tourny
superizzie: dang
superizzie: cool
superizzie: im a baller too

haha, isabel is a baller, hahahaha.......

its nice to be back home and not worry bout school. but its kinda weird cuz like all the streets and freeways are familiar but i dont feel totally comfortable on em. like when im in the bay area i feel comfortable on the roads, i even know where all the potholes and bumpy areas are and places of construction and junk like that. but down at home things arent quite like how they used to be. maybe im just being a weirdo and people dont understand, whatevs.

so my bro was trying to convince me not to get a motorcycle. hes pretty paranoid and worrying that ill kill myself. i guess im just being stubborn by agreeing w/ him but not caring and still having a desire to get one. but i think if God really didn't want me to have a bike then it won't happen. first i gotta get my license, then i gotta buy a bike, then i gotta pay for insurance. so it seems like a long process so well just have to wait and see what happens.

i think everyones getting sentimental at this time of the year. had a class prayer meeting and everyones talking bout how the seniors say that they regret not getting to know their fellow classmates better and my class people was saying they didnt wanna have the same regret. and then after just hanging out at laura/amy/janets place and then kathleens place ive realized that these people will be gone. i guess the only thing i can do is make the most of it w/ the time that we got left.

finally a moment to breath and relax. so im practically finished now, only ling final left on the 25th. man, i had a good 14 hr sleep. but i woke up to no running water. sucks, no water til 3pm. dude, water is so important. we cant live or function w/out it. i think were lucky to have unlimited amounts of water. i just took a dump and now no one else in my apt can cuz the water level didn't come back up. oh well, paul and andy are still sleeping so whatevs. cmon, i want my water back already so that i can shower....

woohoo....done w/ the ling paper. 3 and a half hrs to study for korean. how do i always manage to pull off this crap at the last minute? i think ive had to much practice.

reminder of a good way to stay awake: drink massive amounts of water. itll make you pee every half hr. my pee was so clear that it didnt look like i even peed so i didnt flush the toilet.

a good way to avoid paper and studying: write in my blog.

i decided to take a 5 min break after doing 2 pages of my paper which was a very big mistake. i think the break lasted for bout an hr, i ended up reading a bunch of blogs. dang all u other bloggers out there.....6 hrs left....

sigh, 2am now. 9 hrs left. i hate school.

ive got a ling paper to do and a korean final to study for and ive got 10 hrs to do both of em. plenty of time. thing is, im so stankin tired right now. woke up at like 8:45am for sunday service and then was at church til like past 5pm or so. then played basketball at oregon. hope i can hang tonight....

so someone just called right now and they kept pushing the numbers. i thought it was a baby just messing around w/ a phone and dialing random numbers. so i just started jabbering jibbersish and junk and telling the baby to stop messing around and then i sang britney spears "oops i did it again" for a lil too. then it hung up and then i get a call a min later from lil hannah kim saying that it was her that accidently called. apparently her cell was in her bag or something and it kept moving around and she was scared cuz she thought it was her laptop talking to her even though it wasnt on. she thought her laptop was possessed so she got really scared. wish i couldve seen her reaction.

ran 5K today for one of the missions fundraisers. 5K = 3.1 miles. man, now charles and mike want me to go play ball w/ em. im getting too old for this stuff. in the 5K runathon one of these little boys passed me, he must've been like 14 tops. i thought he was gonna burn out so fast but he tore it up and humbled me. even one girl beat me. i saw her on the last stretch and i was like, i shouldnt let a girl beat me so i was sprinting pretty hard but it was just too little too late. so sad.

so my birthday just passed, i thought that everyone would forget and that the day would just pass by like any other normal day. or at least thats what i kinda hoped. i dunno y i feel that way, im just weird like that. i dont like making a big deal out of my bday, i would rather have a regular day for no really good reason. but im really grateful for all those who remembered and wished me a happy bday. but ya, many people emailed and called and dropped by. i feel that this was just a sign that God has blessed me soooo abundantly. everything kinda took me by surprise. oh man, im falling asleep, im stankin tired. but ya, i was encouraglllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllhllllllhed......oh man, i just dozed off for a sec. ok i gotta wrap this up.

so hayuen was ova and we had one of those long night talks. we talked from like 3-6am. i miss those talks, i havent had one in a very long time. i gotta do this more. sad, bout 2 weeks left for seniors.....

i think everyone and their mama's mamas begins their blog w/ "wow, i havent written in my blog for a while" or something to that affect. it seems like only a handful of people update their blogs consistently. does this mean i just have too much time on my hands?

sigh, the weekend raced on by as usual.

so i went to barnes and nobles cuz janet needed to do some research stuff and i was just looking at random books. man, going there made me wanna read more. i just felt smarter being in that place and i know that i would feel more educated if i read stuff. i should read more books. i could learn so much from reading, especially from reading christian books. i be stankin tired. at least i dont gotta do college writing.

senior banquet was good. i think the juniors did a fine job. and the skit that i was in went pretty well. i thought that my skit was gonna bomb cuz we was supposed to be funny but i wasnt sure if it people would take it as comedy. but i think the seniors enjoyed it and they got a lot of laughs out of it. man, this was just another reminder that they gonna be gone soon.

in other news, my big toe nail fell off. that thing was bruised for like over a month and finally it fell off today. it was pretty nasty, it still looks nasty. wonder if the little bruised toe nail on my left foot will fall off too. now i got 2 blisters from the kobes on my right foot where the arch is. its partly cuz i played ball again today but the main reason is that the kobe shoes suck. dang, my feet are getting tow up.

i played bball today. i played soooo badly, i couldnt pass worth crap. and i wore the new kobe shoes that i bought for $30. man, those shoes hurt like mad. they hurt where the arch is (or where the arch is supposed to be cuz im flat footed). but thing is, i dont think its due to my flat-footedness cuz john chi said that his hurt in the same exact place and he said that others also have the same pain in the same place. hope my foot doesnt cramp in the middle of the night. those r one of the worst cramps. shear pain out of no where for 10 sec and then straight back to sleep.

dangit, i was planning on buying a $10 scooter from kbtoys.com but i just lagged on it. i was gonna buy it now but theyre sold out. somama....word of advice: if u ever run across a good deal, dont hesitate, just go for it. if its a good deal then u wont be wasting too much money even if u dont like it.

6:15am....hating it even more....

stankin 5am. imma be hating it again in the morning. whats wrong w/ me, why am i still up?

i cant hang w/ college writing. i gotta drop. i think imma be at berkeley forevs.

y am i being so random? i think im burnt out. from what, i dunno...

haha, i was searching for paul's website and i ran into this site while searching through google.
http://members.tripod.com/~xntrx/Photos/97-98/random.html
its paul andy and huge from way back (prob soph year).