6 weeks.....went to tang center and thats what the doc told me. 6 weeks til ill be playing basketball again. i never really understood how it felt to be on the "injured list." but man does it suck. athletes must go through so much emotional stress when theyre hurt. i thought i had it bad yesterday. now its worse. but my situation really isnt that bad. tore some ligaments but so what. basically i just need to rest for 6 weeks, and do some rehab. but others out there will have to wait longer or never play again. they cant do certain things. they cant even do normal things.

i feel like i have to trust God even more during these times. like even the lil simple things like taking a pee and changing pants becomes difficult for me. and when i shower im only standing on one foot so im scared of slipping and knocking open my head on the bathtub faucet.

im thankful that ill be able to walk and drive again soon but i still feel like im getting jacked. but the only things that i wont be able to do r basketball and softball. but i was so looking forward to those things. now im stuck w/ sitting at home and catching up on reading.

if you guys are reading this then pray for me. not for physical healing, cuz thats gonna happen anyway. but pray that i would really learn something valuable from this, that i would grow closer to God through this, and that i would do as it says in 1 thessalonians 5:16-18.

sigh, i dunno what to say. being on crutches sucks. its stankin hard to get around. and its ku that everyones being nice and theyre willing to help but id just rather do things on my own. like how come all of a sudden people get even nicer cuz im hurt? like how come ppl arent this way all the time? it takes some misfortune of mine for ppl to become a lil more compassionate. but i think im the same way too.

im really proud of my softball team. we was up 9-0 til the last half inning. but i was still scared. and oh man, when they scored 2 and they had 0 outs i was nervous for my team. but they held on 9-5. i was really happy for the team but at the same time i was stankin sad. sigh. and i knew that if we won that they would say the win was for me. but they didnt say it before the game started. now if they had said it before the game started then i wouldve been touched.

man, whatevs, i dunno what to say or how to feel. God is teaching me something, i just dunno what.

sprained my ankle at the rsf today. im so sad. landed on some stupid somamas foot. i feel like such a gimp. i cant believe imma miss basketball and softball IM's. oh, im really really sad. its so hard to be thankful right now in the kinda situation. but it says to be "thankful under all circumstances." im thankful that i still have my health, even though my ankle aint healthy. sigh. i got nothing to do. im doing my soc reading on a friday night. how sad.

i stubbed my toe again this morning. andy was leaving for class and told me to wake up and so i did and i walked right into the wheel of paul's bed again. my feet are already jacked up enuf. theyre flat as pancakes, 2 toenails have fallen off, my pinky toes are jiggity jacked, i have callouses all ova and i got 2 corns on the bottom of my right foot that hurt. i would not want to be a podiatrist.

oh so stankin tired. i think i read for bout almost 3 hrs today and now im dying. like literally imma pass out. so i got a paper due today. havent started it. havent finished the reading yet. i think i still have like 150 pages of reading left. plus i gotta get magazine and newspaper sources. dang, 6 pgs. and then i have a 4 pager due on friday. y do i always do this to myself.

a couple days ago i set a new record for myself for most wipes after taking a ddong. i think i wiped bout 30 times. literally. i kept wiping and wiping and i kept on seeing stuff. i think the guy in the stall next to me was probably thinking, "what the heck? how many times is this guy gonna wipe?"

a jumper cable is a very useful item that many people dont have. go out and buy one. thats what i did today.

ive come to realize that almost every single person in my life has told me to study more or study harder or just plain old study at all. today a somewhat of a stranger said (indirectly) that i should put more effort into studying. was this God the whole time commanding me to do something? i dunno if it was. but if it was God, then ive been disobeying Him for a stankin long time. forgive me God. its time for me to start making some changes in my life. i cant guarantee that imma study 6 hrs a night or anything like that but im making a committment to studying more and trying harder than i have been.

roach said this: "##-##% of berkeley girls are ugly." use ur imagination and fill in the numbers. all im saying is gangsta stats.

oh so sad.....i think our whole softball team was heart broken when we found out there were no lights at the place formerly known as kleeburger. everyone one of us was so looking forward to our first game of the season. well just have to tear it up tomorrow in basketball. oh so disappointed. stankin lights.

im finally on my own friggin computer. wow, its been like half a yr since ive had my own computer. 6 stankin months. i really like it, i have so much memory, 80 gigs. it looks just like andys. now i can finally do some video editing.

its almost 3am and i gotta wake up for 8am prayer meeting. sigh. but it wasnt really time wasted cuz i was helping someone move. got to hang out w/ the older guys a bit: chris yoo, mike, phil, lewis. those guys r pretty cool, they crack me up w/ some of the things they do and say. i wonder if me and my friends r gonna be like that. i think were all gonna get bellys like them. i think im starting to get mine. i should play basketball more often. and stop eating big portions and stop eating late at night. dang, i still have so much stankin reading to do. sku stil sux.

went to dennys w/ roach, roymund, and john. we had the most unproductive study session ever. but i enjoyed it. but we really wasted so much stankin time. i hate studying.

i got to the library at bout 10:45pm. talked w/ john and rob til 11:30pm. read til midnight. slept til 1:30am. ridiculouses

y does it take me 2 yrs to do laundry. this is ridiculouses. im exhausted from folding. i need to hibernate.

whenevs i plan on reading, it never happens. i think its a curse. or rather a blessing in disguise.

its been a while since ive stayed up this late. bout 5:45am. theres a number of reasons y im up this late. went to library to finally print out my missions testimony thing and then ended up talking w/ anna for a while. i havent chatted w/ her for a while, i forgot how fun it was to chat w/ her. and then i forgot that i still had clothes in the dryer, i think my clothes have been down there for like 12 hrs. im dreading folding up my clothes. i think imma just dump it all on my futon and then just lay in the warm clothes and just crash. haha, i think that would be a funny site. oh, i also read dennis' blog. he wrote a summary of what he did everyday, its pretty funny. i think he told me almost every one of those stories in person. and he mentioned me quite a few times in there. THANKS DENNIS! haha....(hope you got that joke). dang, im stankin tired. i remember i used to do this everyday as a freshman but i cant hang no more. im tired, my body weary.

awana retreat went really well. i think we have some great teachers. man, its too hard trying to organize my thoughts right now. im kinda nervous bout game time. and right after this weekend i gotta catch up on a million pages of reading. i get sad just thinking bout it.

i was feeling kinda crappy today. not exactly sure why. felt kinda depressed for some reason and just a lil overwhelmed. i think i was on the verge of stressing. but jozef came up to berk to visit and he brightened me up a lot. brought me carnitas and told me a bunch of funny stories.

im surprised as to the number of people that still read my blog. i mean it aint that many, but its still a few. maybe its cuz im like the only one who still updates.

9/11 just passed. i think its kinda sad but i really dont have many thoughts on it. have i become to calloused to the things of this world? am i too into my own little world? do i not understand because i didnt go through any special experience? am i just too lazy to care?

what the heck do i do w/ my time? people ask me that question but i never have a good answer for them. i seem to be busy all the time but i can never say how i passed away so much time.

i realize the same stuff over and over again. i think im a retard. like i realized that i need to be more Biblically knowledgable. just a fancy way of saying i need to read the Bible more. and i keep on realizing that time goes stankin fast. then i realize how lazy i am. and after that i realize how much reading i have to do. its the same crap ova and ova again.

i need to be more efficient w/ time. i think almost everyone does. man, y do i gotta read so much. i feel overwhelmed already by how much stuff i gotta read for the semester. i think i just need to read on a consistent basis and then it would become a lot easier. i think ive known this forevs but i just havent practiced it.

dude, yesterday my lower lower back was aching like mad. couldnt figure out what was wrong w/ me. i didnt play any sports or do anything crazy recently. then i just realized today that it was my backpack. i finally put books in it and walked around like mad. i remember it happened to me back in high school on the first day of school. dang, sounds like im turning into a nerd. im actually putting books into my backpack now.

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i had the worst sandwich today. i thought sandwiches could never be bad, like at worst the sandwich would be just aight. i went to bear's lair today and ate at california sensation or whatevs. there was too much going wrong w/ that sandwich. first of all, there was way too much mustard. thats all i tasted, i think they put mustard on both sides of the bread. only need to do one side sir. and then they put on a lot of pickles. like a few is good but no need to put on a dozen. the bread was whack too, it was super hard like rock. and on top of that i paid 30 more cents than i wouldve had i gone to cheese n stuff. i dont think ill go back to that place for a very long time.

i caught a girl picking her nose today. in the middle of lecture a girl was sitting in the way back row and i was standing back there cuz i got to class 30 min late cuz i slept in. but anyway, she kinda looked around to see if anyone was looking her direction, then she kinda pretended to scratch her nose and then she totally dug in to get a bugar. she pulled something out and then looked at it quicky and flicked it away and rubbed her finger on her shirt. i wish someone else was there to see it too.

yesterday i was in lecture and the guy in front of me was really sleepy or something. he kept on dozing off and u would see his head sway over to the side and then right away he would wake up and catch himself. he did this a few times, his head kept dancing. finally one time his head started falling backwards slowly at first and then it gained a grip of momentum and then out of nowhere it went WHAM! right on my desk. he hit it sooo hard and it was soooo stankin loud. i was in shock and i wanted to laugh but he was right in front of me. i think that guy mustve been really embarrassed.

had 4 classes today and i went to all 4 of em. 11am - 5pm w/ a 1 hr break from 2-3pm. but surprisingly class wasnt all THAT bad today. surprisingly it got better and more interesting as the day went on. but i dont wanna jump the gun and say im always gonna go to class or i love school. just today was an aight day. tomorrow shall be even better......only one class baby.

i think its interesting how so many people say "Father God" so many times when they pray.

"Father God thank you Father God for providing for us Father God in every way Father God. Give us strength Father God to depend on you Father God even more Father God. Lord Father God remind us to seek you first Father God in everything that we do Father God."

i think i even do that somewhat. but is it wrong? are we using it too freely? or is it ok to just say it? i remember i never used to say Father God but i remember my brother using it a lot and then one of my bible study teachers used it like mad and a bunch of other people as well. i guess it just catches on the more u hear it from others. but it kinda distracts me when other people use it too much when they pray. is it bad that i get distracted by it? like should the other person not pray like that or should i not be distracted by it? i feel i shouldnt be distracted by it cuz i can change that part myself but i cant really change the other person.

on a different note, i want to think bigger things to God. i think i limit myself in terms of what God can do through me. i always feel that i should have low expectations to start w/ tho. like when i watch a movie, if i have high expectations then im usually disappointed cuz the movie doesnt live up to the hype. but when i have low expectations the movie usually surpasses them and im more pleased. but i feel like it shouldnt be that way when it comes to God. i kinda feel like i should aim higher for Him. i should shoot for the sky cuz its for God. and i guess if i fall short then thats where grace comes in? whatevs, i dunno. i bet the Bible has some answers for me somewhere.