i think imma take a break from blogging.
i dunno why, but right now i dont feel like blogging anymore.
guess that means i will fall in bcs, sigh.
what am i gonna do w/ my time now...

i literally wrote 1 word in the past 4 hrs.
its a stankin 3 page paper, cmon now!!!!!

conversation w/ my stanford friend:

eternaljoyboy: oh wow
eternaljoyboy: guess whos outside
eternaljoyboy: my window
BKU9: i dunno
eternaljoyboy: freakin big game is this week! i almost forgot
BKU9: ya
eternaljoyboy: the berkeley band
BKU9: what?
eternaljoyboy: ugh
BKU9: right now?
eternaljoyboy: so annoying
eternaljoyboy: yeah
BKU9: oh gangstas
eternaljoyboy: u guys do this every year
BKU9: forills?
eternaljoyboy: yeah
BKU9: i had no idear
eternaljoyboy: ur band comes
eternaljoyboy: in cars
eternaljoyboy: and drive around the campus at 4am
eternaljoyboy: and try to wake everyone up
eternaljoyboy: UGGGGGGGGGGGH
BKU9: hahahhaa
eternaljoyboy: BERKELEY FIGHT SONG!
eternaljoyboy: AUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH
eternaljoyboy: FREAKIN BERKELEY FIGHT CHEER

my jaw has been hurting for the past few days. it hurts to open really wide. what the freezy is wrong w/ it?

theres a mysterious puddle that keeps forming underneath our kitchen table. i dunno how in the world it gets there. theres no trail leading anywhere. its enough to fill a whole bowl (i actually measured it by wringing it all out into a bowl). i checked the ceiling for leaks but didnt see or feel anything. plus there shoulda been some water on the chairs as well. dang, where the freezy is it coming from?

this reminds me of the hardy boys and encyclopedia brown series. i loved reading those books. i always identified myself w/ chet because he was always described as the "stocky" nerd w/ glasses. i thought it was funny how they used the word stocky instead of fat. i used to be a chunky kid w/ binoculars on my eyes. ah, the good old days.

too bad andy doesnt know anything bout the hardy boys. he was busy reading nancy drew.

im trying to write a paper but all i can think of is going home.
in exactly one week ill be on my way home.
in exactly one week ill be bout an hr and half away from eating carnitas.
i love that place too much.
it makes me happy just thinking bout eating it.
it makes me sad that i cant eat it right now.

BKU9: y aintchu at library?
ALEXsHYUN: i gave up
BKU9: y?
ALEXsHYUN: the girls there weren't captivating enough

i stayed in the shower for an extra 10 minutes. i didnt wanna get out. the water was so warm and i knew the second that i turned it off, id feel the nasty cold and i would get goosebumps all ova. so i stood there for 5 minutes just thinking bout how it was so nice and that coming outa the shower was gonna suck so bad. i spent the next 5 minutes thinking bout how i would blog about this.

i dunno why im up. i kinda tried to work on my paper but i failed miserably. i just realized that i dunno anything and that i gotta ask my gsi some fundamental questions and shes gonna realize that i dunno jiggity jack squat and that i havent touched my paper yet.

i dont think i want a motorcycle anymore. i think im finally starting to realize that i really would kill myself if i had one. im too reckless. man, imagine going from 0-60mph in 2 seconds. insanities.

im so sad. i was gonna take a break and make some french toast right now but the stankin stove aint working. sadnesses. i blame it on the paper.

its 6am, still havent started my paper. ive been trying to blog for half an hr w/out success.
i used andys comments section to do my blogging. how pathetic is that...i bet more people read that than this blog.
cursed be my stupid paper. jeebeh gagoh sheepuh.

made it into the softball playoffs. we were messing up at the beginning but we pulled through. joo came late, signed it and went up to bat right away w/out warming up. he hit a homer w/out even trying. that definitely got us right back into it. but ya, im definitely excited for both basketball and softball playoffs.

went to dennys after the game. dragged roach and roymund outa the library and met up w/ john, huge, and snoh. it was a lot of fun just talking w/ the guys. i really like my class guys. and all of yall who are hating on them or who are fed up w/ hearing us talk bout each otha, yall can take that back to uranus. i got all their backs so stop drinking the haterade.
andy: "you can get hashbrowns foo!"..."you can get seasoned fries w/out extra charge??? im so sad...."
roach: "can i get it w/ some honey mustard!!!" (exclamation marks emphasize his facial expression and the size of his eyes)

i always hear bout how much girls eat. they always saying, "oh my gosh, i ate so much!" and im thinking to myself, "what the freezy are you talking bout? you had like half a salad and a bite of a breadstick!" i think girls just snack, but they think its so much for some weird reason. are they trying to brag when they said they ate so much? or maybe they want the guy to say, "how do you stay so skinny if you eat so much?" i should just give it to them straight up, "stop eating so much ya fatty, thats why the boys dont like ya." of course there are a few of those rare yujs that actually can eat a grip. but even those chicks cant eat THAT much. i still havent met a yuj that can out-eat me. and any yuj that can is one gangsta that id be scared of.

i been at meetings all day and i been praying all day. it was good but tiring. this stuff has been making me think. since i dont exercise my brain in class its been hurting cuz i dont use it enuf. but id much rather go to these meetings and pray rather than go to class. i feel like i get more outa the stuff i did today.

at the pioneers meeting people said some funny stuff. christine made a comment like, "the word missions is so overused these days. everything and their mamas is missions." pastor ryan responded w/, "everyone and what?" then later christine made some gangsta comments bout the church and stuff and bout how small groups should be different and then pastor ryan said, "which church do you go to?" the pioneers guy got really confused and asked, "is he really joking?" christine was like, "dude, ive been going to this church since i was in 2nd grade!"

deacon allen is such a cool guy. hes stankin funny too, didnt really realize that.

so tired from balling today. my body is still young, but i dont feel like im in my prime, my body is aging. so sad.

went bowling w/ my small group, had a good time. upperclassmen v.s. underclassmen. or is lowerclassmen? i think under sounds more right. lower sounds too negative and seems to relate more towards status of wealth, or rather lack of wealth. why am i thinking bout these retarded thoughts. i crash early.

i saw anna across the street and so i waved to her. this black guy was walking right past her at the same time and he got all happy and excited cuz he thought i was waving to him. anna and i both gave him a weird look and then he saw anna and realized that i wasnt waving at him. he got kinda sad but he said it was aight and smiled and went about his own business.

missing half my classes and driving everywhere has made me forget berkeley's ghettoness. after playing ball at the rsf i walked down dana w/ john and we went our opposite ways on dwight. i started walking up and noticed a guy and a girl sitting in the bushes and smoking. kept on walking up, ran into 4 guys w/ crazy mohawks going on and piercings all ova. walked by people's park, a bum strolled a shopping cart past me, another was sitting on the side eating a free sandwich handout. it surprises me how some people survive in this kind of environment. it also surprises me how others make this place "home."

ive been going back to my freshman day sleeping habits this past week. i been going to bed when the sun is rising. not good for the canker sore in my mouth. it stings like mad and it dont get betta cuz im always tired. but i had fun today w/ charles and mike. we went to elises pad and i watched them take turns spraying each others face w/ water. then mike put on some hats for us. he got one huge head and hats look so funny on him, hahaha! next time you see him ask him to wear a hat for you. i wish i could go back to freshman year.

ALEXsHYUN: yeah...my heart has been broken already
ALEXsHYUN: some guy stole my girl

mooohead77: i'm gonna eat
mooohead77: i'm fat
BKU9: dont
BKU9: we need to stay in shape
mooohead77: its ok i dont' have anyone to impress
mooohead77: food means more

ALEXsHYUN: u fools are all so stinkin sneaky

you guys can use your own imagination for the context behind it.

bout 15 min past 8. i feel like im supposed to be somewhere. i kinda feel like im missing some sorta event right now. or maybe thats just what i want, to feel like i should be somewhere implying that i got important crap to take care of. guess the truth is that im not all that important right now. but theres so much crap that i could be doing right now and i chose to blog. i should sock myself. i could think of a dozen better things to do in half a second. as andy always says, "mother freak!"

imma call it right now. come sunday night imma write in my blog saying that im hating life cuz i have a paper due on monday and i havent started it and im just being stupid that i havent done any of it yet. and then the same thing is gonna happen on tues night cuz i got a paper due wed. and imma do that again on monday the 25th. that one is gonna suck the most. oh, and itll happen one last time right after i get back from break cuz i got another paper due tues, dec 3. i wanna go home.

a bunch of people have recently jumped on the bandwagon of adding comments to their blogs. i have decided not to conform. i like things plain. thats why my blog has kept the same template. thats why its in white background with black type. i like things simple.

i really hope that you just prayed right now. it would be really sad if ya didnt. and it would be even sadder if you prayed right now out of guilt rather than praying the first time out of a need for prayer.

i need to stop sleeping at ridiculously late hours.
thinking bout kcpc/ficb and other church stuff worries me. were a bunch of pathetic people and yet out of us are gonna come the future leaders. how scary is that.
honestly, i kinda dont wanna stick around for the first semester of my senior year. i just wanna study abroad somewhere and come back when its all ova.
take a minute to pray for your own church and ministry right now. and i mean RIGHT NOW. we need all the prayer that we can get.

indian giver tellaw. aaaahahahahaha!!!!!

i like getting people to smell my toe jam. hahaha, makes me laugh just thinking bout it. i got nancy to smell mine right now. and i saved some toe jam from last time to have janet smell. she smells EVERYTHING. muhahahaha....

i get a kick out of it when i read someones blog and they write something like, "oh my gosh!!!! i spent half an hour writing such a long blog and it didnt publish! im so mad! i cant believe that it didnt work, what is wrong w/ this thing?" i just chuckle cuz i remember back in the days when that happened to me. but i think no one realizes that all is not lost. just hit the back button on your browser and your words will magically reappear. yes, forills! the wonders of the computer. and now all of yall are thinking, "oh my gosh! all i had to do was click the 'back' button!"

i think i forgot to blog about this. a few weeks ago taryn and i were at the market and we both needed milk. i wanted her to get the 1% kind cuz thats what i wanted. if buy one it costs like $3.25 or something like that and if you buy 2 it costs like $3.95 or something like that. but she wanted non-fat milk but i told her the deal doesnt work when you get different kinds of milk. i knew cuz the prices were different. she kept on insisting that you could mix and match but i told her not in this case. so we decided that if i was right then she would have to get 1% fat milk and if she was right then i would pay for her non-fat milk. just to double check she looked at the tag of the milks and she nodded w/ a dorky smile thinking that she was gonna win. taryn was sad cuz the checkout guy said that i was right.

i did nothing saturday. i was in bed all. literally ALL day....til 8am. then from 10:30am-4pm then 4:30pm-8pm. basically from 8am-8pm, a span of 12 hrs, i was out of my bed for 3 hrs.

i really liked the guest speaker at ficb tonight. i almost got all choked up twice. when he showed us the picture of the people in the boat and was talking bout the people waving and praying like mad, i wanted to cry. i really felt emotional for a sec but i held it all back. missions seems to keep popping up in my head.

kwansoo's cheering voice is the same as his normal voice. you know how most people kinda get a deeper voice and can yell kinda barbaric? not kwansoo, his voice dont change, its really funny. next time you go to a sporting event with him, listen carefully.

went to the first hockey game of my life today. decided to get some junior guys to go and took out most of the freshmen boys. when we walked in i was kinda shocked at how few fans there were. there was like 2 people sitting in the stands. it looked like my idear of going to a cal hockey game would be a bust. i thought that the stands would be kinda packed and people would be cheering like mad and banging on the glass and fights would break out every five minutes. more people came during the middle of the game but us ficbers still made up half the crowd. and there wasnt even ONE single fight. i was disappointed. but still overall i enjoyed the night and i think the rest of the guys did too.

dennis was looking at the pic of roach thats on my desk. he took a closer look at it and said, "from far away it looks like chiang bang is on his back."

ALEXsHYUN: juss ask me tomorrow!
BKU9: tell me now!!!!!!!
ALEXsHYUN: shekki
ALEXsHYUN: i dunnno
ALEXsHYUN: i might have a hot date w/ a girl tomorrow at that time

WHY IS EVERYONE SO RELATIONSHIP CRAZY?
and now youre probably thinking "im not relationship crazy."
but right when you read that first line you probably thought that i was talking bout you...in your mind that "EVERYONE" included you.
and you probably had a certain person in mind right then too.
its ok...your secret is safe w/ me...
and youre so relationship crazy that youre probably thinking, "does he know bout ME too?"
yes i do. but dont sweat it, i wont say nothing.

i hate doing laundry. everytime i do it something goes wrong. i started at like 4:30pm. i scrounged around for 10 quarters to do 2 loads. gathered up my crap and washed it. then i had to drive somewhere to get more quarters. luckily right when i got back the big dryer was empty. but i only got to use it for like 15 min cuz i realized that i had to go eat dinner w/ dave so i took it out and put it in a smaller dryer. if i didnt take it out i kno that someone wouldve pulled out all my crap. so in the process of switching dryers i drop a whole mess of clothes. so when i get back after dinner and a prayer meeting of course the clothes still aint dry. so i decide to switch back to the big dryer and drop half my clothes again. i put in a quarter but it dont work. im thinking what the freezy. i put in anotha just to make sure and yup its friggin broken. i wanted to drop kick that piece of ddong. so i decide that the clothes are dry enough and took em to my pad. but at my pad i realize that they arent dry enough so i take em back down and i started to put em in the big dryer but luckily i remembered that it was broken. so i put em in the smaller for the final time and dropping some tidy whities and socks while i was at it. laundry friggin sucks my ddongamonk.

note to jomo: andy's gotta be #1 on the bcs....hes gotten a high of 132 hits on his blog in a single day. its insane that he hits 3 figures!

i dont want to write whats going on in my head cuz i dont want you to read it and cuz i dont wanna think so hard.

hallelujah night seems so stankin long ago.

i slept w/out brushing my teeth for the past 2 nights. its cuz me andy and charles have been up talking and i fell asleep on them. and nancy joined us yesterday while i fell asleep. but i woke up early both mornings and brushed me teeth. my teeth felt pretty nasty in the morning.

i visited roach's pad today. he showed me some interesting stuff. VERY interesting stuff....
i had to hold him hostage w/ a plunger in the bathroom for 20 min.

i was kinda nervous during the softball game. score was tied 8-8, bases were loaded and there were 2 outs. and i was up at bat. me of all people, the guy who had a sprained ankle and was out for 5 weeks. this was my first real game back and my team wanted me to do well. they needed me to do well. and i just watched the first pitch go right past me for a strike. next 2 pitches were off so it was a full count. the next pitch looked like it might be a strike and so i had to swing. hit a single into right to score an R.B.I. and the go ahead run. i was relieved that i didnt jack up. dang it feels good to be a gangsta.

andy had a funny thought. he said what if we are both 30 and still single, working in S.F. and still living in capri. we would be labeled as the "oldies" and we would probably be deacons or something like that. i hope that doesnt happen. but if it did then that would be pretty funny. and kinda sad too.

i feel like im struggling, but im not. i just feel like i have a burden for many things. theres just so many people and so many things going through my mind: i care about how ficb is doing as a whole, theres people around me who are struggling with their faith, i feel like i havent been reaching out to my small group guys, i wanna keep up w/ the lives of my friends who arent at berkeley, i know the kids at awana can get so much more out of it, i realize how pathetic it is that there are more freshmen than juniors at prayer meetings, and the list goes on. and after i think bout this stuff then i realize "oh shit, i havent done any studying." and the sad thing is that youre probably more shocked at the fact that i wrote "shit" rather than the fact that there are more freshmen than juniors at the prayer meetings. i guess thats why ive been feeling the way ive been feeling these days. things aint going bad but i just feel burdened. and it dont help that im always tired. i need more stankin sleep.

i got the weirdest fortune in a fortune cookie. "Confucius say: lovers in triangle not on square."
what the freezy?

went to stanford today. i was reminded of how stankin spoiled they are there.

got me a sobe for lunch. underneath the cap it read: "DO YOUR HOMEWORK"
how the heck did i end up w/ that one....

im surprised that hallelujah night seemed to go pretty well. hope God was truly glorified through it.

was up w/ my roommates and charles and elise talking forevs. i havent stayed up talking w/ people in a long time. dang, we is getting old. aigoo, too much smack too.