ive been reading 1 corinthians these days. came across something interesting in ch 14:
"Does not the very nature of things teach you that if a man has long hair, it is a disgrace to him..."
sigh, maybe its time for me to cut my hair....

i was riding w/ chonkey in his car and andy was in the backseat. earlier i asked chonkey if he sings loudly when he drives, like screaming loud to his linkin park cd. he said ya but he wouldnt scream for me. so then later when andy was in the car we were listening to track #2 on the hybrid theory album, its called "one step closer." if ur familiar w/ the song theres a part where it goes, "Everything you say to me!!!!" and chonkey screamed that really loud into my ear. then theres a part right after that follows sung by another person that goes, "Takes me one step closer to the edge, And I'm about to break!" and andy busts out w/ those lyrics out of no where. he had no idea that chonkey was gonna sing at all and he had no clue bout our earlier conversation so he thought chonkeys screaming was just random and he just followed after him out of the blue. andy cracks me up.

everyone loves to tell stories. i think thats a good talent or gift or whatevs to have: being a good story teller. some people suck at telling stories, they just always ruin it cuz of the way they tell it or they miss important details or whatevs. sometimes people just have bad stories. yesterday some friends and i were playing a board game and someone started talking bout a past experience they had w/ the same game. that person told their 1 min long story and it just left me thinking "and.....?" i was waiting for a punchline or something but nothing came after it. and i was thinking to myself "oh man that story sucked!" and i was laughing inside, actually i was laughing out loud as well and andy asked me what was so funny and i said that i would tell him later. i wish i could just tell the whole thing but i dont wanna hurt anyones feelings.

i started reading the screwtape letters by c.s. lewis. its some interesting stuff. man, this is the first time ive read for pleasure in a looooooooong time. probably since like elementary school or something like that. i got the book as a gift, i think it was a very good one. i like how the book is a bunch of short letters put together. it makes it easy to read and u can just sit down for 5 min and read just one letter or u could keep going as long as u want. but some books have like no breaks at all and i hate that cuz i dont like leaving in the middle of it. im looking forward to finishing this one and then going onto mere christianity.

the pegster talking bout herself:

nobobaforyou: u havent seen my rolls
nobobaforyou: and i aint talkin california

i think pablo and pattimayo got toasted at the beach yesterday. i think everyone got burned somewhat except for me. but pablos chest and pattimayos legs looked as pink as a flamingo. me, huge, and andy wasted a lot of time on the rocks trying to catch stupid crabs. why are those lil things so hard to catch?

ive been getting like 12 hrs of sleep a night. i like it.

so ya, i loved the lakers back in the day when nick van exel was the man and he always took the last shot and made these crazy 3 pointers all the time. and those were the years when the tv always caught elden cambell picking crap out of his year and looking at it and tossing aside. i think my bro and i are the only people that always noticed that. and thats when vlade divac was on the team too. but i dont like him since hes the biggest flop in the nba and he whines too much. but not as much as arvydas sabonis, i remember when that foo cried once after playing shaq, he was literally in tears on tv. thats pretty sad.

i need to fix my stankin computer, it still needs a new motherboard. i cant use the computer at night cuz my bro sleeps so dang early. but thats kinda better for me so that i sleep a bit earlier and get other lil junk done.

isabel is a bad maam a jamma:

superizzie: brb
superizzie: talkin to my girlfriend

ah yeah, lakers still own. but they aint as dominant as before. actually im much less of a laker fan now than i used to be. i loved the team like 5 years back when they had van exel and peeler and eddie jones and elden cambell and them. i gotta go but more on the lakers when i get back....

isabel talking bout herself on dank's sn:

dank IM91: they're all playing tony hawk
BKU9: u stressin?
dank IM91: nah
dank IM91: sylvia got me sick
dank IM91: it's all good though
dank IM91: i should go steal the remote cotrols from them
dank IM91: haha
dank IM91: and play myself
dank IM91: show them my skateboard moves
dank IM91: haha
dank IM91: u want some of this!
dank IM91: haha

i think i already miss berkeley.

it sucks that i dont have my own computer at home. my brother sleeps so dang early, like at 11pm cuz hes gotta wake up at like 6am or something like that. man, i dont think ill ever be able to get used to that kinda lifestyle. maybe ill just be forced to but imma hate it. his sleeping pattern is just another sign of him getting old.

ive realized that loyalty is a rare characteristics these days. especially in a friendship. i feel like were in an age where friendships come and go so quickly and that very few of them really last. i think friends tend to change even every semester depending on ur schedule and what classes ur taking and that kinda stuff. it seems like everyone is expected to have drama. its a normal thing for friends to jack friends for another girl/guy. they could make korean dramas out of our lives. i feel like i have only one truly loyal friend in the world. i know that hes the type of person to get my back no matter what. he would take a punch for me, he would take a bullet for me, that kinda stuff. hes gonna be there for me, the only thing he needs to know is when and where. ive realized thats y gangs do so well. is cuz they feel like theyve got a family. that no matter what, his guys are gonna be there for him and back him up. they show true loyalty cuz they dont abandon each other ever. i think its kinda the same thing w/ frats. the guys feel a sense of safety when theyre w/ each other and they just feel like theyre genuinely being cared for cuz theyre loyal to each other. and this is something that the church lacks. were so quick to give up on each other at the first sign of trouble. we point out each others faults w/out hesitation and expect them to change before we associate w/ them again. we need to stop jacking each other and show more loyalty towards each other.

for the past 3 nights before last night, i slept at 7am, if not 7:30am everynight (or rather morning). so i got 3 hrs, 2 hrs, 3 hrs respectively w/ one 3 hr nap in the middle of the day. i dunno how i was surviving. but finally last night i was able to crash forevs and got a good 14 hrs. man, it was pretty sad cuz i came home but i didnt get to say bye to everyone. like its not a big deal saying bye to those im gonna see next fall but im sad cuz the graduated people will be gone. hopefully i will get to see them again sometime. hopefully they will come back to see me graduate, but thatll probably be like another 4 yrs or whatevs....

Monkey528e: bon
BKU9: sup
BKU9: did u eat yet?
Monkey528e: nah
Monkey528e: wanna?
BKU9: ya
BKU9: where?
Monkey528e: where
BKU9: haha
Monkey528e: hah
BKU9: haha
Monkey528e: haha
Monkey528e: stop!
BKU9: hahahah
BKU9: ok

man, 7am. whatevs, i still feel like blogging.

ive realized how chi and i are so similar in certain ways. ive always thought that we were totally different but the similarities are still there. i think our minds think alike. they may not function or process the same way, but we still seem to come out generally w/ the same result. its weird how we have different personalities but we say the same things and we react in the same way.

dangit, i didnt get to write all the stuff that i wanted to cuz i was writing all these dang emails.

but ya, i think the reception will be very enjoyable since andy, janet, anica, and grace lost in taboo. i cant wait...

its crazy late and i wrote that blog bout 3 hrs ago but i didnt post it cuz i was talking w/ andy bout many things. we talked bout a grip of things but i dont remember anything cept one thing.....

so this is during 2nd semester freshman yr. me and andy were helping karen move out of the dorms and she was gonna leave some of her stuff at franks pad. so frank was getting swiped into priestly hall and the machine didnt register his card. on like the third try the sm monitor kinda mis-swiped and the card literally exploded. it was still all together but the card was dangling by threads all over the place. i was so scared at the moment cuz i didnt know frank well then. he had this mean look on his face and he seemed so pissed. but he looked like he was trying to hold in his anger but it seemed like he had so much anger that he couldnt hold it in. then he said, "i obviously dont live in this hall so theres no point in swiping my card." i think the sm monitor was scared as well but he didnt even really apologize, he just kinda handed back what was left of the card. while we were in the elevator he looked at the card and he was angry cuz he had that same card for 4 1/2 yrs w/out any troubles. oh man, i wish i had a picture of franks grill when his card exploded.

heres another story i remembered. so john chi and mejeld were over at my pad for a lil bit. me and john were talking bout the laker game and how crazy their comeback was. mejeld comes in and heres us and gets in on the laker talking. he starts off, "dude, the guys were over at my place and we were going crazy." then chi would say, "all the youth group ppl were over at pastor johns and we were going nuts. they seriously thought that i was gonna break some furniture when horry hit that shot." mejeld said, "all the guys were bashing on the lakers and jaepil was talking trash the whole time. seriously, he wouldnt stop. he kept on going and it was so frustrating." john, "dude!!! jomo and slum were hating on the lakers like crazy and everyone else was for the sacramento too and the only ones who were for LA were me and jessica but she was in the corner crying cuz they were losing so badly." mejeld, "when there were 11 second left, i was so hoping that they would win. i looked at jaepils eyes and they were wide open like this! seriously he was staring at the tv screen so hard" john,"oh my gosh. when horry hit that three i went so crazy. like my eyes were on horry and then right after the ball went through the hoop i turned to jomo and slum, and slum was like, "oh.....OHHHH!!!!!!....." and he was in such disbelief. and then i jumped up and screamed and frank didnt care who won but he saw slum and he started laughing at him like crazy and i jumped right into him and knocked him over so hard. i seriously knocked him like crazy." mejeld,"right after the shot i went crazy and i almost hurt sammy cuz i jumped on him and u know his back, so like ya i almost hurt him badly. and then my NAIM director called and i was trying to talk to him but everyone was going crazy and was all loud and screaming and i was trying to talk to him and i was like uh ya but i wanted to watch the tv but i trying to talk to him at same time and dude, it was so crazy. he thought party was going on and he asked me what it was all about." john,"oh my gosh, i ran into frank like this (he demostrated) and i hit him really hard and i thought i was seriously gonna break something."
..........2 guys telling their own stories w/out really listening to each other except using each others stories as a segway to theirs. i thought it was quite hilarious cuz each was so into their own story. they were just really wrapped in themselves. if u didnt enjoy this im sorry, u just had to be there.

i think my humor has changed in college. i think ive become a lot more cynical w/ my jokes. like whenever anyone asks me to do this or pass that or whatevs, i respond w/ a no. like someone would call and ask, "can i talk to andy" (this happens quite often and id bet $10 that its a female) and i would respond by saying, "no." i make lots of sarcastic remarks and i just say "mean" things. but i dont mean to be "mean." im just joking and i find humor in my sarcasm at times. but most of the time its just an automatic response. it has become normal to me and i dont like it. so from now on i think imma try to be "nicer." hopefully everyone doesnt think im really mean. but whatevs. if u think that then.....i dunno. if u think im mean then just tell me that im mean or just dont talk to me. but if u really think im mean then u probably dont talk to me already.

dude, i just stubbed my toe. i was walking in the bedroom and i banged my right pinky toe against pauls bed leg and it hurt like a motha. oh man, i was in so much pain for like half a minute. its so weird how that kinda stuff hurts so much. man, i hate hitting my toes against crap.

"i'm off to the library, woo hoo, i love finals week."
kevin chiang is one of the nerdiest nerd i know....

y the heck did i just check my email right now......y the heck am i blogging this crappers now....go study....no.....now......screw it......i hate school.....

let me clarify....when i said "i go try to study a lil more" i meant "imma go over to kathleens and talk w/ her amy and charles for 3 1/2 hrs." final in t minus 4 hrs and counting.....y the heck to they say t minus blah blah when counting down? or am i just making that stuff up cuz im delirious?

4:30am, got a final in 8 hrs, great time to update my blog. its a horrible feeling having a final while everyone else is done and playing. i wish i could just say screw it but theres something in me that somewhat cares bout my grade. i dunno what it is. its not like i dont care at all, but i think i barely care enough to do decently. i would go deeper into this but im a lazy somama so imma just stop. i go try to study a lil more. key word = try.

s n o b unnynk: there will be lotsa pretty athletic women
BKU9: hahaha
BKU9: ugh
s n o b unnynk: and lotsa athletic men
s n o b unnynk: hubba hubba
s n o b unnynk: and i'll give u yummy jolly rancher fruit chews
BKU9: id rather just have andy and huge
s n o b unnynk: u gotta play the field a lil
s n o b unnynk: andy & huge are nice.. sure .. but for how long?

im stankin tired. was at the library and i studied for the first time in my life. i slept for like an hr and then i studied for bout 2 hrs. and while i was studying i was thinking, "hey, this studying stuff aint too bad." dont get me wrong, i still dont LIKE studying, its just that i guess i dont HATE it. but then again when i was trying to study at dennys later i was hating it, so i guess that library instance was just a fluke.

for like the past few nights ive been sleeping w/out brushing my teeth. every one of those nights i thought to myself, "imma just take a nap in my bed." but that never works. ya, i know all of us have done that before, we convince our minds that were gonna wake up but our bodies dont cooperate. but ya, id always wake up at like 8am and realize that im in the same clothes and so id brush my teeth and take out my contacts and change and then go back to bed. i shouldnt do that anymore, i shall brush my teeth tonight.

so ya, last night i was kinda depressed cuz i have no direction in my life. but i slept it off and now im all good. i guess it just forces me to trust in God all the more. i keep searching for my future but all i get is nothing and its not scary but i just want motivation i guess. whatevs, ill leave it up to Him. i wonder if im just saying this cuz i have no other choice...

i just posted some junk but i decided to take it back. ill just add some crap later. this sucks.

ok, now working

y wont my stankin blog work....

so this past sat i was at the young nak basketball tournament. the first game that i played in was such a heartbreaker. the other team hit the last shot at the buzzer to win by two. what a sad game....

so ive heard that hayeun is pretty ghetto. i heard she packs food to go to denny's. i thought that was pretty funny.

i was talking w/ some friends the other night and john chi was there and we were talking bout his bad stank breath. dontchu hate it when ur talking w/ someone and u smell their nasty breath and ur thinking to urself, "oh man! can u please turn around and speak the other way!" sometimes people dont take enough breath mints or chew enough gum or they dont brush their teeth enough. but ya, i feel that way bout john chi sometimes when his grill is up close and his breath be kickin like bruce lee.

BKU9: just finished the bball tourny
superizzie: dang
superizzie: cool
superizzie: im a baller too

haha, isabel is a baller, hahahaha.......

its nice to be back home and not worry bout school. but its kinda weird cuz like all the streets and freeways are familiar but i dont feel totally comfortable on em. like when im in the bay area i feel comfortable on the roads, i even know where all the potholes and bumpy areas are and places of construction and junk like that. but down at home things arent quite like how they used to be. maybe im just being a weirdo and people dont understand, whatevs.

so my bro was trying to convince me not to get a motorcycle. hes pretty paranoid and worrying that ill kill myself. i guess im just being stubborn by agreeing w/ him but not caring and still having a desire to get one. but i think if God really didn't want me to have a bike then it won't happen. first i gotta get my license, then i gotta buy a bike, then i gotta pay for insurance. so it seems like a long process so well just have to wait and see what happens.

i think everyones getting sentimental at this time of the year. had a class prayer meeting and everyones talking bout how the seniors say that they regret not getting to know their fellow classmates better and my class people was saying they didnt wanna have the same regret. and then after just hanging out at laura/amy/janets place and then kathleens place ive realized that these people will be gone. i guess the only thing i can do is make the most of it w/ the time that we got left.

finally a moment to breath and relax. so im practically finished now, only ling final left on the 25th. man, i had a good 14 hr sleep. but i woke up to no running water. sucks, no water til 3pm. dude, water is so important. we cant live or function w/out it. i think were lucky to have unlimited amounts of water. i just took a dump and now no one else in my apt can cuz the water level didn't come back up. oh well, paul and andy are still sleeping so whatevs. cmon, i want my water back already so that i can shower....

woohoo....done w/ the ling paper. 3 and a half hrs to study for korean. how do i always manage to pull off this crap at the last minute? i think ive had to much practice.

reminder of a good way to stay awake: drink massive amounts of water. itll make you pee every half hr. my pee was so clear that it didnt look like i even peed so i didnt flush the toilet.

a good way to avoid paper and studying: write in my blog.

i decided to take a 5 min break after doing 2 pages of my paper which was a very big mistake. i think the break lasted for bout an hr, i ended up reading a bunch of blogs. dang all u other bloggers out there.....6 hrs left....

sigh, 2am now. 9 hrs left. i hate school.

ive got a ling paper to do and a korean final to study for and ive got 10 hrs to do both of em. plenty of time. thing is, im so stankin tired right now. woke up at like 8:45am for sunday service and then was at church til like past 5pm or so. then played basketball at oregon. hope i can hang tonight....

so someone just called right now and they kept pushing the numbers. i thought it was a baby just messing around w/ a phone and dialing random numbers. so i just started jabbering jibbersish and junk and telling the baby to stop messing around and then i sang britney spears "oops i did it again" for a lil too. then it hung up and then i get a call a min later from lil hannah kim saying that it was her that accidently called. apparently her cell was in her bag or something and it kept moving around and she was scared cuz she thought it was her laptop talking to her even though it wasnt on. she thought her laptop was possessed so she got really scared. wish i couldve seen her reaction.

ran 5K today for one of the missions fundraisers. 5K = 3.1 miles. man, now charles and mike want me to go play ball w/ em. im getting too old for this stuff. in the 5K runathon one of these little boys passed me, he must've been like 14 tops. i thought he was gonna burn out so fast but he tore it up and humbled me. even one girl beat me. i saw her on the last stretch and i was like, i shouldnt let a girl beat me so i was sprinting pretty hard but it was just too little too late. so sad.

so my birthday just passed, i thought that everyone would forget and that the day would just pass by like any other normal day. or at least thats what i kinda hoped. i dunno y i feel that way, im just weird like that. i dont like making a big deal out of my bday, i would rather have a regular day for no really good reason. but im really grateful for all those who remembered and wished me a happy bday. but ya, many people emailed and called and dropped by. i feel that this was just a sign that God has blessed me soooo abundantly. everything kinda took me by surprise. oh man, im falling asleep, im stankin tired. but ya, i was encouraglllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllhllllllhed......oh man, i just dozed off for a sec. ok i gotta wrap this up.

so hayuen was ova and we had one of those long night talks. we talked from like 3-6am. i miss those talks, i havent had one in a very long time. i gotta do this more. sad, bout 2 weeks left for seniors.....

i think everyone and their mama's mamas begins their blog w/ "wow, i havent written in my blog for a while" or something to that affect. it seems like only a handful of people update their blogs consistently. does this mean i just have too much time on my hands?

sigh, the weekend raced on by as usual.

so i went to barnes and nobles cuz janet needed to do some research stuff and i was just looking at random books. man, going there made me wanna read more. i just felt smarter being in that place and i know that i would feel more educated if i read stuff. i should read more books. i could learn so much from reading, especially from reading christian books. i be stankin tired. at least i dont gotta do college writing.

senior banquet was good. i think the juniors did a fine job. and the skit that i was in went pretty well. i thought that my skit was gonna bomb cuz we was supposed to be funny but i wasnt sure if it people would take it as comedy. but i think the seniors enjoyed it and they got a lot of laughs out of it. man, this was just another reminder that they gonna be gone soon.

in other news, my big toe nail fell off. that thing was bruised for like over a month and finally it fell off today. it was pretty nasty, it still looks nasty. wonder if the little bruised toe nail on my left foot will fall off too. now i got 2 blisters from the kobes on my right foot where the arch is. its partly cuz i played ball again today but the main reason is that the kobe shoes suck. dang, my feet are getting tow up.

i played bball today. i played soooo badly, i couldnt pass worth crap. and i wore the new kobe shoes that i bought for $30. man, those shoes hurt like mad. they hurt where the arch is (or where the arch is supposed to be cuz im flat footed). but thing is, i dont think its due to my flat-footedness cuz john chi said that his hurt in the same exact place and he said that others also have the same pain in the same place. hope my foot doesnt cramp in the middle of the night. those r one of the worst cramps. shear pain out of no where for 10 sec and then straight back to sleep.

dangit, i was planning on buying a $10 scooter from kbtoys.com but i just lagged on it. i was gonna buy it now but theyre sold out. somama....word of advice: if u ever run across a good deal, dont hesitate, just go for it. if its a good deal then u wont be wasting too much money even if u dont like it.

6:15am....hating it even more....

stankin 5am. imma be hating it again in the morning. whats wrong w/ me, why am i still up?

i cant hang w/ college writing. i gotta drop. i think imma be at berkeley forevs.

y am i being so random? i think im burnt out. from what, i dunno...

haha, i was searching for paul's website and i ran into this site while searching through google.
http://members.tripod.com/~xntrx/Photos/97-98/random.html
its paul andy and huge from way back (prob soph year).

so im still thinking bout college writing. ya, yall must be tired of reading bout college writing this and college writing that. well boo hoo, i aint here to please u. so as i was saying, college stankin writing. what to do....i was leaning towards sticking through with the class these last 2 weeks but now im unsure again. i was looking over the junk i need to do for it: i need to write 1 full essay (5 pager), revise and edit 3-4 papers, fix up a summary/writing exercise booklet that we did for a book (some of the writing exercises included drawing my apartment and talking to the drawing and then pretending to be the apartment and talk back to myself: ridiculous stuff), 3 short essays (2 pagers) on that stupid booklet that i made, plus 3-4 short reflections (1 pagers) on some stupid short poems/readings.
so im thinking to myself, "i really really really dont want to do this work."
then i say, "but im not gonna want to do it next year either."
but, "im 99% sure ill get a C (if not worse) in the class."
well, "will i do better next year?"
hmm, "i want to work much harder and get an A."
still, "how realistic is that?"
uh, "its totally possible. i wanna study more; im trying to become a nerd."
eh, "but its like that every year..."
ya, "im making progress. the past 2 semesters at cal i missed over 100 classes. this semester ive missed less than 10."
wait, "but if i drop ill get a W on my transcript!"
shrug, "who cares, im not applying to grad school. plus its just one W. and its 6 units of 2.0 if i stick w/ it."
sigh, "well its up to me, i just gotta make sure that i bust it up next time i take the class."
question, "will it be better next time i take it?"
answer, "it should be. teacher shouldnt be as crazy. class will hopefully get out earlier. i hope workload wont be as gangsta or ridiculous either. maybe ill have better study habits. but really, only time will tell...."
ugh, "i really dont wanna go to class tomorrow."
ok, "that does it. screw going to class. might as well just drop it."

i think imma be here at cal for 5 and a half yrs. i will be known as the 6th year superman senior. stupid late telebears: stankin may 2nd. soph standing sucks.

dude, im so sad....i just found out that i cant take college writing at a jc....im really, really sad. sigh. to drop, or not to drop, what in the freezy do i do?

man, so many topics to write about. so our soph class did our sister's appreciation thingy this morning. thats part of the reason y i only got 3 hrs of sleep cuz i had to wake up early to cook french toast. letme be the first to say that i was the only brother that was against this whole sister's appreciation thing and voiced against it. i just gotta be honest to myself and to everyone that reads this. i didnt wanna do sister's appreciation for a number of reasons. one being time: its late in the semester and just planning it all out and doing everything amidst all this busyness was not a good idea. someone said that it would only take like 1-2 hrs and he was right but the overall planning and preparation and everything took many hrs. second, i felt that this sisters appreciation was somewhat forced upon the brothers. not from the sisters, but from some of the fellow brothers. like i was the only one to voice my opinion but it seemed like everyone else was down to do it. so that leaves me the option of not doing it and looking like a jacker or just going along w/ the rest of em. third, i dont know some of the soph sisters well enuf to appreciate them. u cant appreciate someone unless u know them and i just felt that it wouldnt be genuine appreciation if i didnt know them. fourth, i would wanna go all out for a sisters appreciation and do everything crazy good. but anyway, this is just my own take on all of this. im gangsta tired. screw college stankin writing, i gonna just drop the class.

ok, i kno ive been complaining too much again. time to talk bout something different. i went to gospel choir night sat night cuz marcia forced me to buy a ticket but im glad that i went. i was really impressed by many of the things that i saw. its crazy that those singers have so much passion. man, just made me realize how passionless i am. i need more zeal in everything that i do: through my words and actions as well. anyway, i kinda forgot what else i wanted to say bout it cuz i only got 3 hrs of sleep and i didnt write in my blog bout it right away. but i recommend people to go next time. those singers r gangsta.

so me huge and elise went over to marcias later after the concert and we was just hanging out and talking. marcia pretended to try to throw a ball at my head but she was really aiming for huge's crotch and she connected. then huge told us when they went to magic mtn he caught her glancing at his crotchular area. marcia is a dirty perv.

the number of hours of sleep i got since last sunday:

sun night/mon morn - 4 hrs
mon night/tues morn - 5 hrs
tues night/wed morn - 0 hrs
wed night/thurs morn - 16 hrs
thurs night/fri morn - 1 hr
fri night/sat morn - 6 hrs
sat night/sun morn - 3 hrs

that means for the past week i've been averaging about 4 hrs of sleep a night. and now i got a paper to do for college stankin writing. i really wanna just go and drop the class tomorrow and take a W. im so ready to do that. thats how much i hate it. i hate that class w/ a passion. i dont hate many things in life. i cant even think of anything that i hate cept this stankin class. im so tired that i dont wanna write anymore.

http://www.rpi.edu/~changb/money_funny.asf

this is the best....

still 2 sentences baby.....

man, 2am and im on page 0. i feel my sinful nature kicking in again. sigh....i think i sigh a lot. its not a good thing to be sighing. cuz whenevs i sigh, its a sigh of "man i got so much work" or "i dont wanna do this but i gotta" or "i hate this." anyway, i got like 2 sentences for my ling paper which is supposed to be 7 pages single spaced. but no way imma single space it; at least 1.5 if not double spaced. i dunno why im not all worried bout this paper, maybe cuz its just a rough draft and it dont really count.

i think im just worried more bout college writing. i really hate that class. yes, i know ive said that a million times but i dont think anybody understands unless theyve taken that class. and even if uve taken that class u probably didnt have a teacher that sucked as much as mine. i hope that my teacher never reads this cuz then id feel bad. but its the truth. ugh, my life wouldve been so much nicer this semester without that class. i really wanna drop that class right now. yes, i wanna take the W even though its like the 13th week or whatevs. i hate it THAT much. if you ever wanna suffer then take college freakin writing, i guarantee that you'll hate it. going to class is like anticipating the cold air right after you take a shower. you feel so nice and warm in the shower but you know that you're gonna have to step out eventually. right after you turn off the shower head the coldness starts to sink in. when you open the door another crazy wave of coldness slaps you right on the buttcheeks and then the nipplies get hard (at least mine do). thats what class is like, im walking to class and i know that im walking into the depths of hell, but i cant turn back. right when i step into the room i start to whimper. then the beast walks in and thats when i want to toss myself out through the window. may God have mercy on my soul....

i forgot to mention my basketball game. we lost on tues night, sigh. but thanks for all of those who came out and cheered us on, we appreciate the fans. its sad that our season is over. i kept on thinking bout the little mistakes that i made. dang, im already looking forward to next season.

so anyway, paul was getting ready for the boat dance right now. i saw that he got a haircut and i asked, "got a haircut for the boatdance?" he said, "uh.....no. um, i just needed one." haha, still trying to impress the ladies i guess. and then he jelled his hair and everything. he was also kinda stressin bout what to wear cuz he had nothing really dressy so he just put on whatevs and went. i wonder if hes gonna dance this time cuz i heard he didnt dance at all last yr, he just stood outside w/ andy and didnt do jack squat. and the top 2 pimps of our class, andy and john, arent going so the ladies must be sad, i think there'll be a drop in attendance cuz of their absence.

well, i didnt get sleep on tues night/wed morning cuz i had to work on some college freakin writing junk. i think im hating that class more and more w/ each passing day. but ya, last night/this morning i caught up a bit on sleep from my lack of it. i slept like 16 hrs. haha, yup. from 6pm wed night to 10am thurs morning. but now i gotta work on my stankin ling paper. the papers just keep on comin....

time moves crazy fast when u keep dozing off.
i hate college writing even more.

for like the past 4 nights i've been sleeping at like 5 or 6am. i really dunno how my body is handling this lack of sleep.

i've come to another realization: college writing sucks even more than i previously thought.

man, i ended up reading blogs for like a stankin hour.
hayeun said some stuff in her blog that made me laugh:
"That big jerk of a billy...always trying to find ways to screw me over. But it's ok, I shouldn't seek vengence. God punishes those who deserve it, and I have faith in this. Just look at Billy's hair."
hayeun is a hater!

i nominated rob for an officer position in ficb yesterday. i wonder who will get selected for officers. its weird thinking bout the future of ficb. imma be a junior and my class has to start stepping it up now. its clajee that were gonna be juniors soon. ok, im thinking too ahead of myself, need to concentrate on these next 4 weeks.

so i brought home a clown costume cuz they had one at church and they were gonna toss it so i just took it cuz it would be a waste to throw it away. the clown suit is pretty hilarious. pablo put it on last night and we went around scaring people. a couple disappointing scares but a few good ones too.

4 hrs of sleep last night and i still have too much junk to do.

wow....that took me like less than 5 minutes. i re-read Romans 13 cuz were gonna go over that in Bible study and it was so short and simple. then i prayed a short and simple prayer and bam! i was done. im really shocked, God continues to amaze me.

dude, this whole week ive been sleeping way late. been getting only like 5 hrs a night. im a stankin retard for doing this junk. ive realized that 99% of the crap that goes wrong in my life is my own fault. man, if i was more obedient to God then my life would be so much more stankin easy. and really it takes so little to keep my life on track. it always comes back to reading the Bible and praying. thats always the cliche answer but its so true. thats the solution to my problems like 99% of the time. its kinda ridicurous that Christians are so messed up. all we need to do is those two simple things. right after i finish reading this i should do those 2 things. so should you.

a couple people think that andy has been acting kinda weird lately. this could possibly be true. but it only seems this way when him and martini and hayeun are together. i think theres just a lot of tension w/in that group. you wanna know my take on this? theyre all involved in a love triangle. so hayeun used to like martini but now she jocks andy hard. martini is andys small group leader and now hes jealous of andy. andy has no clue as to whats going on cuz hes on "auto-pimp" mode. he truly oblivious to the mad jocking that he gets. i wonder what would happen if andy switched to "manual-pimp" mode. crazinesses.....

i hate it when i lose a sneeze. that happened to me today and judy said that when she tries not to lose one, she just stops breathing. then she showed us a demonstration. it was hilarious. she did it like 5 times. hayeun and i enjoyed a good laugh, thanks judwhaee.

now go read ur Bible. and if its too far or u dont got one then go to www.bible.com. now u suckas dont have any excuse. dangit, now i gotta go read so that i dont become a hypocrite. i mean, woohoo, Bible reading time!

i went to a jazz concert last night w/ a bunch of people. we saw this crazy guy, forgot his name, but he got a bunch of grammy nominations and stuff. but ya, he sang all crazy, wish i could sing like him. he could go dang high and gangsta low w/ his voice. it was a very entertaining show. and the bass player broke one of his strings, i dunno how u break a bass string by plucking. the whole concert thing was very interesting, i feel more cultured now. then me andy martini and hayeun went ova to in n out and talked and got fatter.

im at the library right now. i was reading on memorial glade cuz its so dang nice outside. then i took like an hour nap there out in the sun. very nice. hope my face didnt get burned.

6am....stankin tired. last night slept at like 5:30. night before that was like 5. y do i do this to myself, sigh. so i started reading other people's blogs and ive realized that everyone and their mama's mamas got blogs. man, everyone's got links to other peoples blogs and i kept on clicking and clicking. dang the internet. dang my broken computer.

seems as though everyone tries to say something profound on their blogs. they try to say "deep" stuff. me, i like to keep things simple. here's my "deep" thought of the day: school really sucks.

ok, ill give the short version of what i typed before:
so this lil girl evelyn, whos in awana, has her own blogspot. dude, everyone and their mama's have blogs these days. so anyway, her blog is pretty crazy and i was encouraged and amazed by it cuz shes only a 4th grader and the "God" related things that she talks bout are very interesting. and her blogs have pictures and stuff too. if ur reading this evelyn u must teach me how to do it. and she even studies more than me: God's trying to tell me something there.....so ya, ill pray for ya evelyn.

next thing i was talking bout was bout me going on missions. i still havent decided yet and yes im such an idiot for not figuring that out yet. that God for grace. but ya, its between going through NAIM to canada or through AWM to paris. ya, i was thinking the same thing at first: paris??? and then i thought: PARIS!!!!! i know, my mind is evil, but its still missions though. this mission trip is aimed toward the muslim community in paris. theyre trying to reach an unreached people group by preaching to them in a "free" country. the hope of the mission is that these muslims would hear and accept the gospel and then return or visit their homeland (a "closed" country). in places like the u.s. and paris we have the luxury of preaching the gospel freely but in other countries preaching the gospel is against the law and you could get killed for it. how crazy is that? getting killed for telling others about Jesus Christ. we have too much to be thankful for here. and here i am complaining bout my stupid broken computer (which is still broke) while other Christians are being persecuted for what i take for granted. ok, i dunno what more to say, so ill stop here.

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i just spent like 20 min typing up a blog and then i accidently clicked undo or some junk and i deleted practically all of it. this really sucks. computers are the devil....

went to the giants/dodgers game. was my first time at pacbell, nice park. went w/ a bunch of eastbay people, got to meet some new brothers and sisters. i had some gangsta garlic fries which made my breath kick like john chi and then i saw bonds make a game winning hit in the bottom of the 9th to make the final score 2-1. oh well, imma be going to the next game in like 8 hrs. after i got back martini, hayeun, andy and i played clue from like 1-4. haha, that game is so much fun. the first time i played it (bout a week ago) the soph brothers didnt like it too much and i was sad cuz i thought that we would never play it again. but we found it to be so strategic and lotsa fun. that game really worked our minds. so i go to pacbell again w/ martini, hayeun, and dan "the man." hopefully dodgers will win and the giants fans wont yell f*ck L.A. again as their cheer. i didnt kno that sf fans were so brutal.

i just finished my paper for college freakin writing. i ditched class in order to finish it. this is the 3rd time that ive ditched class so that i could avoid turning it in. i just finish it and then email it to her and say that i was sick so i didn't show up to class. and its always a bonus to miss class. but ya, its dishonest, sigh. i really need to change that, i've realized that its the little things in our lives that we need to change. if my teacher were to find bout my blog and read this stuff i think she would be pretty disappointed in me. and not only that but i think it would stumble her to find that i'm a Christian yet she sees my lies.

last night was another example of the "little things." we had our flag football IM game which we won like 20 something - 0. but i think our team complained too much both to the refs and to the other team. the other team was pissed at us for a number of reasons and i think they had a right to be. i watched part of the game from the sidelines and i heard a lot of the comments that the other team made and they were definitely not very encouraging words. and after the game we were prayed but i didnt want to because i thought that the other team would look at us praying and think, "those guys pray? they just acted like punks during the game and now they're praying; what hypocrites." the last thing i want to do is stumble another person. if sports are going to hinder others from believing in the gospel then we shouldnt be participating in them. ive realized that i need to be more conscious of my actions while i play sports and even more than that, in all aspects of my life. ok, i cant think straight no more cuz i gotta take a whiz....

andy went to san jose this weekend for his brothers key club event thingy. his brother is the governor of key club which is supposed to be a gangsta position cuz that puts him in charge california, nevada, and hawaii for key club. hes got like the highest possible student position. the chon's are just crazy sexy. but ya, andy cried in his brothers farewell speech or something like that. mustve been a pretty powerful speech there. wow, andy is so sensitive....

i was reminded of a story that happened bout a month ago. so a bunch of us were going out for hiyas' bday and me and andy went over to walgreens to look for something to get her. chose walgreens cuz we couldnt think of anything good to get her and walgreens has a large variety of stuff so we went. so we both get dressed and we were wearing the same jeans and very similar shirts, just different colors. we didnt think much of it at first but later i realized that i shouldve changed. so then we get to walgreens (the one on shattuck near berkeley bowl, not near the bart station....the bart station one is a lot smaller and suckier) and we were just rummaging around. i saw some pots and flowers and junk and thought that hiyas would like that so i got her some soil and pots and flower seeds. in the meantime andy gets some pots also and some onion and jalapeno seeds so that he can grow em himself. isnt andy so wonderful? so we get in line and we look at those listerine paper mint things. andy says that its such a waste cuz the packet is so small but the whole overall packaging was so big. i told him that it wouldnt sell as well if it was the small package, people need to be able to notice it so it was just a part of advertising. then andy says, "billy, you're so sexy." so imagine this, 2 asian guys wearing the same thing and standing in line w/ pots and seeds and soil and one of them calls the other "sexy" and a bunch of other people are standing in front and behind us. i felt so fruity. i wanted to sock andy right there but all i could say was shutup. that was a weird experience.

i went trick or treating w/ pablo, peggy, and josie at 2am. they came over and we was bored so we put on some outfits and went to some other capri apts. the reaction that we got was kinda disappointing but whatevs. we got candy from everyone cept martini. now im crazy tired. paper due monday, imma die again, this sucks. we also lose another hr cuz of daylight savings crap. sucks even more.

played simpsons clue til 2am. started playing at like 1 or so. crazy tired, 8am awana prayer meeting, dangit.

sigh....at the library. studied for like an hr and now i gotta get outa here.....computer still don't work, dangit.

my computer died last night and it didnt work again this morning. im so sad, this really sucks. im computerless....

ive realized that a lot of people don't update their blogs too often. it seems like i'm the only one that updates their blog like every other day or so. i get tired of clicking on other people's links and finding a blog that was posted 2 weeks ago. ah whatevs, i complain too much.

went to the library today, its been a while since ive studied there. man, i got like so little work done cuz i fell asleep. i think it was my body's instinctive reaction to studying. billy and studying do not mix well.

andy is a chick magnet. he was on the phone for like 2 hrs cuz this yuj that jocks him called. hes my hero.

sylvia was waving bye from inside the car and she hit her finger against the window and grimaced in pain. she cracks me up.

doing a paper, im really hating it. college writing sucks. they should officially change the course title to "college freakin writing."

i was hanging out w/ young nak people today and ron said, "you know who should've been named frankenstein?" and we thought of the same person. then rich yum started laughing and then ron said, "rich, i wouldn't be laughin too hard if i was you." i thought that was hilarious.

went to tony romas for dinner, they had their all you can eat ribs deal going. i got that and i ate 47 ribs. i coulda ate more but i was already feeling crappy enough and my friends were waiting on me and it wouldve taken me a long time to eat more. dang, i shoulda gotten to 50. but that wouldve taken like another half hr. i dont think imma ever order the all you can eat ribs again. my fingers still smell like ribs.....

wednesday, bout mid-spring break. the days are going by too quickly. dang, i need a haircut. i always tell my bro to cut my hair and his response is always tomorrow. then i ask him the next day and he says tomorrow, and then ill say you said that yesterday! and then he'll get all pissed and say go to the barber and cut your hair!......


at the beginning of break i didn't read the Bible at all, yes, im still a sinner. but i picked it back up for the past few days and i finished Acts today. i dunno if i should go onto Romans cuz im going through it in my Bible study group right now or if i should skip onto 1 Corinthians. hmm, well just have to wait and see. but ya, i've realized that the Bible is very confusing at times. Like in Acts 26:14 Paul is recalling the account of when the Lord first spoke to him. Paul is telling King Agrippa that a voice said, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me? It is hard for you to kick against the goads." so i turned back to chapters 9 and 22 where the story is also told. in ch 22 Paul is speaking to a crowd in Jerusalem and in ch 9 it is the first time the story is told. but in both ch 9 and 22 it says only, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?" it doesnt include the part in ch 26 that says, "It is hard for you to kick against the goads." i was wondering why the heck Paul didn't say that junk in the previous chapters. i was also wondering what the heck does it mean? so then i used the great internet capabilities and went to www.Bible.com and looked up the passages in a different version than the NIV. i looked in the KJV and it says, "Who art thou, Lord? And the Lord said, I am Jesus whom thou persecutest: it is hard for thee to kick against the pricks." it says that for ch 9 and 26 in the KJV but not for ch 22. and so when i read "pricks" i was thinking in the terms that we usually use it: a reference to a person who is a jerk or something like that. so then i went to www.dictionary.com and looked up prick and goad. so pricks was used in the sense when you prick someone with a needle, and a goad is a long stick that is sharp at the end which you use to prick people or things, kinda like a crude spear. so anyway, i did all this stuff and it helped me in a way, but it also didnt. it showed me that different versions of the Bible include and omit certain things and that none of the translations are perfect. now i understand that Paul is being symbolically pricked by the Jews. but i still don't think that i fully undertand the meaning of the line, "It is hard for you to kick against the goads." and im not sure why it was written only in certain chapters instead of all 3 of em for the different translations. ok, i think ive talked about this too much. basically, i need to get smarter and study harder. dang, this reality check sucks.

stankin paper is still left unfinished at its like 4:30am. i just took a nap and i wanna go back to sleep, sigh. hopefully i can crank this out in like 3 hrs but i highly highly doubt it. i always do this to myself, y oh y oh y.

so last night my bro was gonna go out and then my mom told him to come back early. and that reminded her of how he came back home really late on saturday night and she started scolding him about it, i thought it was a funny sight. my 23 year old brother living at home and about to go out w/ his yuj and my mom is still yelling at him for coming home late at night. one of the great joys of being at berkeley, not getting scolded by the mom.

finally home. a much needed rest even though i gotta still do a paper thats due on monday and i need to do a lot of reading and other crap for college stankin writing. but after that paper is done imma probably just chill. oh ya, hiyas did some crazinesses to my hair on wednesday. i dunno exactly what to call it. basically she twisted it up and then tied it down w/ rubber bands. so my hair is in rows, my bro says i look like latrell sprewell. it hurt at first, and that night i was starting to get a headache. but it got better but now its hurting a lil cuz i think its jacking up my scalp cuz its pulling constantly. i met up w/ my relatives today, saturday, and my grandma wasnt too pleased. but my mom was a lot more cool w/ it than i thought she would be. but she still wants me to get rid of it soon. think imma have my bro cut it tonight. im tired, gotta wake up gangsta early for church. its nice to be back home.

its hecka early right now, bout 7am. i ended up falling asleep at a friend's pad while trying to study. got home around 5am and then i did the dishes which took like an hour cuz there was a grip of stuff to wash and i just take forevs to do em. i think its weird when people wash each thing individually, like they scrub a dish and then they rinse it off and then they go on to the next thing. i scrub all the stuff first and then rinse em all off at the same time. i think its easier and faster but i could be wrong. some people like to cook but i'd rather wash dishes, i think its a lot easier to wash dishes. i don't really mind doing the dishes....i think i have like 2 people that read my blog consistently, how sad. but like i said, this aint for others, its mainly for me cuz im selfish like that.

so i'm at Acts 15:37-40, "Barnabas wanted to take John, also called Mark, with them, but Paul did not think it wise to take him, because he had deserted them in Pamphylia and had not continued with them in the work. They had such a sharp disagreement that they parted company. Barnabas took Mark and sailed for Cyprus, but Paul chose Silas and left, commended by the brothes to the grace of the Lord." man, they must've had a gangsta fight in order to just ditch each other like that. i wish i knew more bout each of these guys, how close they were to each other and stuff. maybe they were really close friends or maybe they didn't get along that well the whole time. i just hope this don't happen to me, where i get into an argument or fight w/ someone in my church or something and we have some crazy beef. we all got too much pride.

i missed class today. its cuz i didnt write my essay and we were supposed to turn in a first draft today but i was too tired to do it last night. im definitely burnt out. but i just realized that this is only the 3rd time i missed class this semester. in the previous 2 semesters i missed about over 100 classes. yup, forills. in the spring semester of my freshman yr i missed over 60 classes and in the fall of my sophomore yr i missed about 40 classes. man, those absences add up....

in Acts 12:21-23 it says, "On the appointed day Herod, wearing his royal robes, sat on his throne and delivered a public address to the people. They shouted, "This is the voice of a god, not of a man." Immediately, because Herod did not give praise to God, an angel of the Lord struck him down, and he was eaten by worms and died." he got eaten by worms??? i wish i coulda seen all the stuff that happened back in the day, that stuff wouldve been crazy.

the Bible continues to surprise me. first of all, in Acts 9:40 it says, "Peter sent them all out of the room; then he got down on his knees and prayed. Turning toward the dead woman, he said, "Tabitha, get up." She opened her eyes, and seeing Peter she sat up." i think thats gangsta that Peter brought a dead woman back to life. he did what Jesus was able to do. i thought that was pretty amazing. the second verse that really surprised me was pointed out to me by anna and marcia. Deuteronomy 25:11 "If two men are fighting and the wife of one of them comes to rescue her husband from his assailant, and she reaches out and seizes him by his private parts, you shall cut off her hand. Show her no pity." check it out yourself, its right there in the Bible. hahaha, now thats truly gangsta! i guess this happened pretty often or something to make it a law or command or whatevs.

sigh, slept at 4:30am, woke up at 8am. had prayer meeting then ate some cereal and then went to rsf cuz our IM basketball team was supposed to shoot around together. but apparently i was the only one there at 10:15 even tho we was supposed to meet up at 10 and the only other guy that showed up was robert. i waited for like over an hr just to play my first game cuz it was dang packed on the courts. after playing ball i went and took a 1 min shower then picked up some people for missions training. came back, ate, then went to the ksa event. ran into anna and marcia on the way home and they chilled here for a while. anna and i kept on laughing at marcia for a lot of things, i havent laughed so hard in a while. it was a fun night but now im so dang exhausted. and now my stomach is hurting, i dunno y. im putting my body through too much pain. but i gotta prepare counsel time for awana before i sleep, i shoulda done it earlier, sigh.

haha, andy is so excited cuz he finally got his new computer today. hes been w/out his computer for like almost a month (3 and a half weeks). i think hes really really happy cuz he finally got it. its a pretty sweet dell system, a lot better than his old one that died on him like a million times. man, now i want a new computer system too. i want a lot of new things, dang, y am i so materialistic. stupid society, but we cant totally blame it on just society, i guess its just in our nature to desire things. aigoo, y am i such a sinner.......

its like 3:30am and i gotta get up at 8:00am for awana morning prayer. imma be hating it in the morning. but it was all my fault cuz i was playing monopoly w/ martini, young, and ted. then later jiehoon took over for young cuz she left.....i think imma get rocked again this weekend. i can feel all the junk that i need to do building up. sigh, i just need one last push, only need to survive one more stankin week. then im home free.

so in Acts chapter 8 this guy philip is led by the Spirit to evangelize to this one dude. this dude eventually asks philip to baptize him and so philip agrees to do it. in Acts 8:39-40 it says, "When they came up out of the water, the Spirit of the Lord suddenly took Philip away, and the eunuch did not see him again, but went on his way rejoicing. Philip, however, appeared at Azotus and traveled about, preaching the gospel in all the towns until he reached Caesarea." what the freezy? i didnt totally understand what the Spirit did to philip cuz all it says is that it took him away. crazinesses....

ncaa tourny starts tomorrow or rather today. just finished doing my picks. texas is my cinderella team, i have them in the final four, haha. i also got cal in the final four for the yahoo group that im in w/ some young nak people, go bears!

so im reading the bible a lot more now cuz ive decided to read a chapter of the bible everytime before i turn on my computer. so i usually turn it on 1-2 times a day, so that means 1-2 chapters a day of bible reading. i started in the book of Acts cuz i didnt wanna start in Genesis and i didnt wanna start w/ the gospels either so i decided on starting right after the gospels right after Jesus was taken up to heaven. so i was reading Acts chapter 5 and its pretty crazy. the apostles are doing amazing things and some people sell all that they have and give it to the apostles to distribute it to the needy. this one guy Ananias sells his land, keeps part of the money, and gives the rest to them saying that it was all the money he had. but Peter was able to tell that was lying and he rebuked him and then, "When Ananias heard this, he fell down and died." Acts 5:5. same thing happened to his wife cuz she knew and lied too so she died too in verse 10. i thought that it was crazy that they just died out of nowhere. so ya, i guess u shouldnt lie to the Holy Spirit or there could be some clajee consequences.

sigh, we lost our softball game to the pangu boys. so sad, it wouldve been nice to end the season 2-1. dang this stankin short 3 game season. at least i still got basketball and football. we better tear it up on the court.

so its bout 5:30am right now, basically all ive been doing for the past 3 hrs is my laundry. i need to study for my vocab quiz and i need to get started on my college writing paper but i havent done jiggity jack squat. this sucks. y the heck do i do this to myself?

another full weekend, played basketball cuz i was pumped up after owning my ling midterm. then basically fell asleep in fic (sigh, im reminded that im a sinner way too often). saturday - awana prayer meeting, more sleep, missions training. sunday - church, awana, football, softball, then start my studying. monday - vocab quiz, stankin college writing, e-house, basketball. im gonna be dang tired. imma pray that God will sustain me once again.

got to talk w/ young and martini bout lots stuff today. we all realized that our church is headed downhill, theres just a lack and need of too many things. we all know that we gotta step it up in our own ways, i think God convicted us three to do take action. we talked a lot bout it and then we prayed, then talked some more, and then prayed again. it was a great time of sharing and praying, we really need more prayer. i made this song my prayer:

Lord I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every breath that I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord have Your way in me

earlier this morning blogger was down so i couldn't post. and now its hecka early in the morning, bout 8:30am ish. i pulled an all nighter cuz i had to study for my linguistics midterm cept i havent really studied it too well. so right now im at moffit and im trying to memorize all this junk. i even went to the friday morning prayer meeting but i slept through half of it cuz i was so dang tired. i cant wait til i get some sleep. i better ace this stupid midterm.

my korean teacher made fun of me the other day. she asked me what a certain word was, it was the word "hug" in korean but i didn't know it. she said that girls like to do this and i was like i have no idea and then she said, "yujah chingoo upjee?" then the whole class laughed at me, so sad.

the stankin blog that i just wrote didnt get posted. ill try to do it again. so last night we won 42-19. no more losses for us, we've got our eyes set on making playoffs.

on a different topic. just when i thought i finally understood God's grace, i realized that i still didnt do it justice, His grace is so much greater than i could ever imagine. i think one of my friends had a recent epiphany about grace, i think he came to realize that the only person that he needed to seek forgiveness from was Christ instead of the other people that he had wronged. another friend wrote me a verse on a birthday card last year and i was reminded of it recently since we're going over Romans in bible study, its an amazing verse.

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:38-39

finally finished my paper....naptime then gametime baby.

dangit. i fell asleep at 4:30am and i just got up right now at 9am and i barely started my paper. stankin school.

after awana i went to go watch some friends play in their first coed flag football game. they told me to sign up with them and play and so I did but i jacked up a few times. on the 2nd to last play huge threw me a hail mary bomb and the guy guarding me tipped the ball and so it threw me off but i coulda still caught the ball. and then on the last play huge dumped me a short pass and i scrambled for bout 50 yards but i got trapped so i lateraled it to john song and he tried to lateral it to someone else but it didnt work. man, that was my 3rd straight loss in 3 different sports: softball, basketball, football. and right after we had a softball game against the eastbay team and i really really didnt wanna lose again. we were down in the last inning cuz we let in some runs towards the end but our guys came back to win in the last inning. i was just very relieved to not lose again. and it was nice winning against the eastbay team cuz they beat us in basketball the previous week in that crazy close game. anyway, i got a stanking paper to write now and then i gotta study for korean vocab quiz, how crappy this is. im so butt tired. i got class til 5 and then i got e-house then i got another basketball game. hope i dont collapse and hope we win.

kevin said the funniest thing: he was at this chick's house while he was on her jock and then the chick's sis asked him how berkeley was and all he could think of was "you're so hot."

so i havent updated in a while. but aint like there r many people reading this. just to let the few of u faithful readers know that this is mainly for myself. i think itll just be cool to look back on this in the future. plus, if i wanna refresh my memory on something or if i wanna remember some specific event then ill be able to look back on this stuff.
so anyway, ive been busy again, but i cant really pinpoint what ive been busy w/. it just seems like all the little things add up. i havent been getting enuf sleep as usual. hope this does not become a trend for me but i think it already has which sucks majorly. on thurs we had a good small group session, i feel like my small group is really getting closer now. the more i spend time w/ them, the more i like them and the more i enjoy their company. we went to dennys afterwards and had fun singing songs in the car. on fri i played ball from bout 6-9 after the freshman retreat sendoff and then we had our soph, jr, sr sports fellowship. softball and football was fun but i was dead tired from no dinner and from bball. then i went to dennys again, but this time w/ a few of my class people. and today ive been busy w/ awana prayer meeting and missions training and im so dang tired still. only got 6 hrs of sleep after 6 hrs of running around playing sports. i gotta start a paper now thats due on mon and i have no time tomorrow at all, busy from noon til midnight so i guess ill be pulling an all-nighter to finish my stankin paper. if i was a girl i would just cry right now cuz i feel so dang burnt out. but i cant do that cuz i aint no sissy lala. my prayer now is that i may rely on God to strengthen me and that i would do all of this to glorify Him. may i find joy in serving my King.