i just remembered something random from retreat. i think i understand someone much better now after hearing from them at retreat.

had a weird dream. i was trying to get through some stairs from underneath but i couldnt fit. i was trying to get to taryn and roachs pad, ya, they were living together in my dream. i dunno y i didnt think it was weird at the time. but ya, i was living in the same apt complex as them. i dont get it.

i wonder why it is that i cant study...

hallelujah night preparation went really really well in my mind cuz i was expecting a disaster. i just thought that there were gonna be too many stankin people. so i thought that there wouldnt be enough rides. we ended up having like 4 extra cars so people just carpooled instead. then i thought that there wouldnt be enough stuff to do but it seemed like everyone was helping out and doing something to contribute. thank you God for making everything work out well. hope the same goes for the actual hallelujha night.

last night pablo was talking in his sleep. he was singing some kinda song or something but his words made absolutely no sense. he sang for like 10 sec and then stopped and ended w/ a fart.
and right now he just said something too, he said, "thats friggin disgusting man. friggin disgusting!" wonder whats going on in his head.

wow....andy got over 100 hits on his blog yesterday. thats straight up gangsta.

had small group. snoh was answering a question and saying, "so i think the Bible is trying to say....dadadadda.......like......dadadada.....ya know.....dadada.....actually, i dunno." it was so funny cuz he was totally trying to answer it and he said so much stuff but in the end he just gave up and said i dunno.

i really want this semester to end. i think i dispise school. i cant wait til thanksgiving break. cant wait til winter break. "i just cant wait to be king!"

man....y didnt i just sleep like an hr ago. im a stankin idiot. i think i always make the same stankin mistakes. i swear i think i have this exact same post already on my blog somewhere.

i was excited to play basketball today. it feels good to be able to play again. kinda sucks that i still have to be cautious about it but im just glad that im not a gimp anymore. or at least not too gimpish.

im reading a book for my decal class called "Let Your Life Speak" by parker palmer. it said some interesting things:

"This kind of love does not reflect the "functional atheism" we sometimes practice - saying pious words about God's presence in our lives but believing, on the contrary, that nothing good is going to happen unless we make it happen."

"I started to understand that I had been living an ungrounded life, living at an altitude that was inherently unsafe. The problem with living at high altitude is simple: when we slip, as we always do, we have a long, long way to fall, and the landing may well kill us. The grace of being pressed down to the ground is also simple: when we slip and fall, it is usually not fatal, and we can get back up."

this stuff just caught my attention.

its been a full 4 weeks and a few days since ive sprained my ankle. ive been waiting to play softball for like 5 weeks cuz our first game got cancelled. i was excited to play again cept the other team had to forfeit the stankin game. we got to scrimmage but it just wasnt the same. there was a very large turnout of people though. i was surprised but then i quickly realized that there are just too many dang good lookin people that bring the fans out.

went to the library at 12:30. i read for half an hr and then slept for the next hr. im so weak when it comes to studying. i think its pretty pitiful. im stankin tired.

i think i broke my neck on the ride back from retreat. i shouldnt have riden in the back of the bus on top of all the luggage and sleeping bags.

i hit my foot against some books like 30 sec ago. it hurt like stankin mad. i dunno why but i just wanted to write this. i always run into crap.

i got these 2 zits, kinda on the sides of my head. theyre both at the edge of my eyebrows, kinda hidden. theyre kinda big and they hurt. everytime i squint they push into my head and it feels like a migrain.

Chubs4JC: your mine for life yo
Chubs4JC: lol
eshin116: AHHHHHHH
Chubs4JC: poor eugene
Chubs4JC: he's sooo flustered by love

Chubs4JC: i got first dibs on eugene shin

i always think that theres a good chance that i did well on my midterms. i sometimes think what if i got an A even though i only studied for like an hr for the midterm. then i get it back and i get humbled again.

"Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like." James 1:23-25
we are a bunch of morons for forgetting what we look like.

one of the freshmen in my small group has a yuj pimpin on him so hard. i aint even joking. first, she lets him drive her porshe. how gangsta is that. second, they drive around for 4 stankin hrs. third, she teaches him how to swing a golf club at the driving range. oh shmeezy. fourth, her parents treat him to a french restaurant. all of that in one day. game ova.

"three things we pray:
to love thee more dearly,
to see thee more clearly,
to be w/ thee more nearly,
day by day by day....by day."