i think imma take a break from blogging.
i dunno why, but right now i dont feel like blogging anymore.
guess that means i will fall in bcs, sigh.
what am i gonna do w/ my time now...

i literally wrote 1 word in the past 4 hrs.
its a stankin 3 page paper, cmon now!!!!!

conversation w/ my stanford friend:

eternaljoyboy: oh wow
eternaljoyboy: guess whos outside
eternaljoyboy: my window
BKU9: i dunno
eternaljoyboy: freakin big game is this week! i almost forgot
BKU9: ya
eternaljoyboy: the berkeley band
BKU9: what?
eternaljoyboy: ugh
BKU9: right now?
eternaljoyboy: so annoying
eternaljoyboy: yeah
BKU9: oh gangstas
eternaljoyboy: u guys do this every year
BKU9: forills?
eternaljoyboy: yeah
BKU9: i had no idear
eternaljoyboy: ur band comes
eternaljoyboy: in cars
eternaljoyboy: and drive around the campus at 4am
eternaljoyboy: and try to wake everyone up
eternaljoyboy: UGGGGGGGGGGGH
BKU9: hahahhaa
eternaljoyboy: BERKELEY FIGHT SONG!
eternaljoyboy: AUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH
eternaljoyboy: FREAKIN BERKELEY FIGHT CHEER

my jaw has been hurting for the past few days. it hurts to open really wide. what the freezy is wrong w/ it?

theres a mysterious puddle that keeps forming underneath our kitchen table. i dunno how in the world it gets there. theres no trail leading anywhere. its enough to fill a whole bowl (i actually measured it by wringing it all out into a bowl). i checked the ceiling for leaks but didnt see or feel anything. plus there shoulda been some water on the chairs as well. dang, where the freezy is it coming from?

this reminds me of the hardy boys and encyclopedia brown series. i loved reading those books. i always identified myself w/ chet because he was always described as the "stocky" nerd w/ glasses. i thought it was funny how they used the word stocky instead of fat. i used to be a chunky kid w/ binoculars on my eyes. ah, the good old days.

too bad andy doesnt know anything bout the hardy boys. he was busy reading nancy drew.

im trying to write a paper but all i can think of is going home.
in exactly one week ill be on my way home.
in exactly one week ill be bout an hr and half away from eating carnitas.
i love that place too much.
it makes me happy just thinking bout eating it.
it makes me sad that i cant eat it right now.

BKU9: y aintchu at library?
ALEXsHYUN: i gave up
BKU9: y?
ALEXsHYUN: the girls there weren't captivating enough

i stayed in the shower for an extra 10 minutes. i didnt wanna get out. the water was so warm and i knew the second that i turned it off, id feel the nasty cold and i would get goosebumps all ova. so i stood there for 5 minutes just thinking bout how it was so nice and that coming outa the shower was gonna suck so bad. i spent the next 5 minutes thinking bout how i would blog about this.

i dunno why im up. i kinda tried to work on my paper but i failed miserably. i just realized that i dunno anything and that i gotta ask my gsi some fundamental questions and shes gonna realize that i dunno jiggity jack squat and that i havent touched my paper yet.

i dont think i want a motorcycle anymore. i think im finally starting to realize that i really would kill myself if i had one. im too reckless. man, imagine going from 0-60mph in 2 seconds. insanities.

im so sad. i was gonna take a break and make some french toast right now but the stankin stove aint working. sadnesses. i blame it on the paper.

its 6am, still havent started my paper. ive been trying to blog for half an hr w/out success.
i used andys comments section to do my blogging. how pathetic is that...i bet more people read that than this blog.
cursed be my stupid paper. jeebeh gagoh sheepuh.

made it into the softball playoffs. we were messing up at the beginning but we pulled through. joo came late, signed it and went up to bat right away w/out warming up. he hit a homer w/out even trying. that definitely got us right back into it. but ya, im definitely excited for both basketball and softball playoffs.

went to dennys after the game. dragged roach and roymund outa the library and met up w/ john, huge, and snoh. it was a lot of fun just talking w/ the guys. i really like my class guys. and all of yall who are hating on them or who are fed up w/ hearing us talk bout each otha, yall can take that back to uranus. i got all their backs so stop drinking the haterade.
andy: "you can get hashbrowns foo!"..."you can get seasoned fries w/out extra charge??? im so sad...."
roach: "can i get it w/ some honey mustard!!!" (exclamation marks emphasize his facial expression and the size of his eyes)

i always hear bout how much girls eat. they always saying, "oh my gosh, i ate so much!" and im thinking to myself, "what the freezy are you talking bout? you had like half a salad and a bite of a breadstick!" i think girls just snack, but they think its so much for some weird reason. are they trying to brag when they said they ate so much? or maybe they want the guy to say, "how do you stay so skinny if you eat so much?" i should just give it to them straight up, "stop eating so much ya fatty, thats why the boys dont like ya." of course there are a few of those rare yujs that actually can eat a grip. but even those chicks cant eat THAT much. i still havent met a yuj that can out-eat me. and any yuj that can is one gangsta that id be scared of.

i been at meetings all day and i been praying all day. it was good but tiring. this stuff has been making me think. since i dont exercise my brain in class its been hurting cuz i dont use it enuf. but id much rather go to these meetings and pray rather than go to class. i feel like i get more outa the stuff i did today.

at the pioneers meeting people said some funny stuff. christine made a comment like, "the word missions is so overused these days. everything and their mamas is missions." pastor ryan responded w/, "everyone and what?" then later christine made some gangsta comments bout the church and stuff and bout how small groups should be different and then pastor ryan said, "which church do you go to?" the pioneers guy got really confused and asked, "is he really joking?" christine was like, "dude, ive been going to this church since i was in 2nd grade!"

deacon allen is such a cool guy. hes stankin funny too, didnt really realize that.

so tired from balling today. my body is still young, but i dont feel like im in my prime, my body is aging. so sad.

went bowling w/ my small group, had a good time. upperclassmen v.s. underclassmen. or is lowerclassmen? i think under sounds more right. lower sounds too negative and seems to relate more towards status of wealth, or rather lack of wealth. why am i thinking bout these retarded thoughts. i crash early.

i saw anna across the street and so i waved to her. this black guy was walking right past her at the same time and he got all happy and excited cuz he thought i was waving to him. anna and i both gave him a weird look and then he saw anna and realized that i wasnt waving at him. he got kinda sad but he said it was aight and smiled and went about his own business.

missing half my classes and driving everywhere has made me forget berkeley's ghettoness. after playing ball at the rsf i walked down dana w/ john and we went our opposite ways on dwight. i started walking up and noticed a guy and a girl sitting in the bushes and smoking. kept on walking up, ran into 4 guys w/ crazy mohawks going on and piercings all ova. walked by people's park, a bum strolled a shopping cart past me, another was sitting on the side eating a free sandwich handout. it surprises me how some people survive in this kind of environment. it also surprises me how others make this place "home."

ive been going back to my freshman day sleeping habits this past week. i been going to bed when the sun is rising. not good for the canker sore in my mouth. it stings like mad and it dont get betta cuz im always tired. but i had fun today w/ charles and mike. we went to elises pad and i watched them take turns spraying each others face w/ water. then mike put on some hats for us. he got one huge head and hats look so funny on him, hahaha! next time you see him ask him to wear a hat for you. i wish i could go back to freshman year.

ALEXsHYUN: yeah...my heart has been broken already
ALEXsHYUN: some guy stole my girl

mooohead77: i'm gonna eat
mooohead77: i'm fat
BKU9: dont
BKU9: we need to stay in shape
mooohead77: its ok i dont' have anyone to impress
mooohead77: food means more

ALEXsHYUN: u fools are all so stinkin sneaky

you guys can use your own imagination for the context behind it.

bout 15 min past 8. i feel like im supposed to be somewhere. i kinda feel like im missing some sorta event right now. or maybe thats just what i want, to feel like i should be somewhere implying that i got important crap to take care of. guess the truth is that im not all that important right now. but theres so much crap that i could be doing right now and i chose to blog. i should sock myself. i could think of a dozen better things to do in half a second. as andy always says, "mother freak!"